“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(My personal problems developed in force when I began to be overly concerned with my creative “work” as work, as it applied to the world, as it would be received and interpreted; when I tried to compare its reception to other officially accepted activities—that people understood—when I tried to look at my “work” through their eyes, and when I began to expect the kind of honor and approbation given to others—who conformed.

(I am right—meaning in accord with my own nature—when I “forget” each book as it is done... Basically the creative play exploration, writing, is the main core of my creativity—and I do that for the love of doing it. I am“lucky” that the books sell, and that does mean that the world does accept “my work” to a certain important degree. But basically creativity is not a career in usual terms. It cannot be treated like a lawyer’s career or a scientist’s or whatever. When I started doing this, I aroused the protective elements—the conservative elements—of my personality... which immediately wanted approval for my books—not that I shouldn’t want approval per se but that I began to demand that my art provide all my needs; to financially support me, to give me honor among my fellows, a sense of belonging, etc. Now this can be expected to some degree for a noncreative career; but it can damage creative activity; the need for creativity naturally is... the creation of something new that disrupts the conservative principles; and that freedom is paramount. If you confuse the issues you try to temper your creativity (to gain approval, etc.) which can dilute the work; or you set up protective measures to protect yourself against the worlds disapproval or scorn.