“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane asked that Seth comment on her fear about time, a question we’d uncovered recently with the pendulum. Her bodily changes continue, and these are detailed in her own notes mainly. Actually she wanted Seth to comment on her overall condition, what was happening, etc.)

Without going into background information again, and regardless of the reasons, people in your time have been taught to regard their natures with suspicion. Since Ruburt’s nature was rather—rather—extravagantly different from what he considered the norm to be, and since he possessed abilities that were not common generally and specifically to his sex, he became even more unduly suspicious of his own nature. He believed then that he needed safeguards.

You have both done well since our last session. Ruburt on his own began to give the old suggestion “My legs and knees can bear my weight,” for he suddenly realized that that was indeed true. His fears, unexpressed, now being given expression, led him to certain beliefs about the body. I am giving this material again for your easy current reference. He can indeed walk easier and better now —another suggestion that he can begin to use. There will be variations, however, as you must understand from material I have given you recently.

It will help if the two of you together discuss your feelings about time and work. Ruburt’s nature will see to it that he has time to do all the important things he wants to do in any given day. Becoming more aware of his desires will activate the body so that it performs more quickly in order to meet his goals. In the past he cut the desires down, to make sure that the most important prerogatives would be met, but his picture of reality was too small. The body and mind both need stimuli, variety, and richness, and his nature automatically seeks expression, not repression.

John Wayne represented old lines of conventionalized beliefs about the male. Wayne represented feelings about the male that you received in your background from your father, and through boyhood movies, in which the male could afford affectionate behavior or conversation—only with his horse (with amusement). In other words, the uncommunicative male, who was afraid of open sentiment. The dream was in response to our last session, in part, and of your own musings as a result. You saw yourself as separate from Wayne, and able to manipulate much more quickly. And your feelings in the dream toward him were your feelings toward those old beliefs.

(10:45 PM. Jane was surprised at the quick end to the session, and I was willing to continue longer. A copy of Seth’s analysis of my John Wayne dream is attached to the dream in my notebook.

(Our exploration of “flamboyance” came about through Seth’s use of “extravagant” in this session, as I scanned the original notes this morning while coming up with some new questions. I guess the realization that the basic mistrust of one’s own nature could have such dire results was what triggered our conscious realization that we could do something about the whole business of symptoms, etc. Jane began to show results as we discussed the subject; after lunch, she was so loose, including her knees, that she wondered whether she could get to the john—which she did, by the way. But she reported “new things” releasing in her head area, and the back of the neck, that had been “tight as a fist.” Very encouraging, and we plan to continue working with these thoughts.

(All of this sounds very simple in the telling, of course, but was opaque to us until we’d gone this far with the pendulum work, evidently. Seth has said the same thing many times over the years. The difference now, I told Jane, was that we were paying attention to those ideas.