“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

None of Ruburt’s characteristics are “negative,” bad, or dangerous. All of them, recognized as a part of his nature, would basically work together in the most auspicious, satisfying, and fulfilling of fashions. When he fears his own nature, however, then the qualities are not put together as smoothly, so that one can appear contradictory to the other. Thusly, Ruburt felt that there were contradictions between spontaneity and discipline, the intuitions and the intellect. Therefore he tried to be either spontaneous or disciplined, or intellectual or intuitive, but with the implied supposition that these were somehow opposing conditions, or opposing elements of behavior.

The physical body runs itself spontaneously, and yet with an inner automatic discipline and order that is indeed almost impossible for you to understand.

When you two make love in any manner, you are involved with a spontaneity and discipline, again, that literally cannot be consciously ascertained. In Ruburt’s situation, such encounters are particularly of the highest import, for spontaneous motion is elicited. Impulses are aroused. The nervous system is regenerated. Nerve impulses quicken, as does circulation. More than this, the body automatically, spontaneously responds to emotion, and yet in that spontaneous activity what inner discipline reigns.

The inner order of the body is hidden within its great spontaneous abilities. Now Ruburt once felt that he had to discipline his impulses, lest they spontaneously lead him where he felt his purposes, or safety, might be threatened. If he understands now that his own nature provides for his sustenance, and automatically leads him into fulfillment, and couches his existence in perfect safety (leaning forward), then certain things will become clear.

The visual activity itself stimulates different portions of the psyche, and allows mental concepts to be rearranged while he is thus occupied. New intuitional insights grow while he is not thinking in those terms, and if he trusted his nature more fully he could enjoy the painting more while also realizing that other levels of the self had their own reasons. The impulse to paint, therefore, fits in with the same kind of spontaneous “discipline” that is so magnificent in the activity of the body.