“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You have both done well since our last session. Ruburt on his own began to give the old suggestion “My legs and knees can bear my weight,” for he suddenly realized that that was indeed true. His fears, unexpressed, now being given expression, led him to certain beliefs about the body. I am giving this material again for your easy current reference. He can indeed walk easier and better now —another suggestion that he can begin to use. There will be variations, however, as you must understand from material I have given you recently.

Since our last session, very significant activity has accelerated in the entire head area. Basically, it results from the chair activity, and activation of the knees, while the upper body is not in a state of stress. Those areas are being released, and the process, continued, will release the eyes.

John Wayne represented old lines of conventionalized beliefs about the male. Wayne represented feelings about the male that you received in your background from your father, and through boyhood movies, in which the male could afford affectionate behavior or conversation—only with his horse (with amusement). In other words, the uncommunicative male, who was afraid of open sentiment. The dream was in response to our last session, in part, and of your own musings as a result. You saw yourself as separate from Wayne, and able to manipulate much more quickly. And your feelings in the dream toward him were your feelings toward those old beliefs.

(“Have Jane’s dreams changed in character since we began our latest efforts to help her?”)

(I might add that today, Thursday, Jane experienced a dramatic further release in her neck and other areas of her body, so we are getting results with our program. Her new release began this morning as we worked with the pendulum, and she can attach her report to this session if she wants to. We voiced the idea that three key words seemed to symbolize her physical hassles—fears of scorn, criticism, and flamboyance. As the morning passed and we continued to exchange ideas, we saw of course that all these reflected Jane’s fear or distrust of her own nature—a situation that simply must be remedied. I made a brief note about the three words on a sheet of our pendulum questions.

(Our exploration of “flamboyance” came about through Seth’s use of “extravagant” in this session, as I scanned the original notes this morning while coming up with some new questions. I guess the realization that the basic mistrust of one’s own nature could have such dire results was what triggered our conscious realization that we could do something about the whole business of symptoms, etc. Jane began to show results as we discussed the subject; after lunch, she was so loose, including her knees, that she wondered whether she could get to the john—which she did, by the way. But she reported “new things” releasing in her head area, and the back of the neck, that had been “tight as a fist.” Very encouraging, and we plan to continue working with these thoughts.

(After lunch we discussed her own notes on the morning’s work, and stressed that she should use the word “flamboyant” as part of her own true nature, attaching only positive meanings to it, being proud of it, realizing that it gave expression to her abilities in a way that few could match. This of course meant, as we said, that she needn’t go about any longer pretending to be like the normal housewife next door, or whatever inanity—since nothing could be further from the truth: She is not like the normal housewife next door, should not want to be, should not be in alarm at their criticism, and should thank God for whatever abilities she has of her own that do inevitably make her different, superior, talented, etc., with something unique to offer the world—an opportunity few possess, and that should be used with the greatest joy and abandon. After all, I said, people come to her for help, she doesn’t go to them. To stand in fear of the criticism or scorn of others is now, we see, the worst possible behavior. This must be eliminated, and we intend to work unceasingly at the task until its accomplished. I see no reasons to prevent our succeeding.

(I also stressed that our changing attitudes would be sure to change our attitudes toward others—that instead of trying to act “normally” toward strangers when they came here, especially when they were unannounced, we should simply be ourselves, secure in the abilities of our own natures; if any of these actions could be taken as “flamboyant” in a negative way, then so be it. That would be their hassle, not ours, I added. Our goal now is to simply speak our minds, if in a nice way, usually, to others, and let the chips fall where they may. I added that it would be ironic and hilarious indeed that if this new behavior brought to us everything we’d always wanted for our life’s work.