“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

None of Ruburt’s characteristics are “negative,” bad, or dangerous. All of them, recognized as a part of his nature, would basically work together in the most auspicious, satisfying, and fulfilling of fashions. When he fears his own nature, however, then the qualities are not put together as smoothly, so that one can appear contradictory to the other. Thusly, Ruburt felt that there were contradictions between spontaneity and discipline, the intuitions and the intellect. Therefore he tried to be either spontaneous or disciplined, or intellectual or intuitive, but with the implied supposition that these were somehow opposing conditions, or opposing elements of behavior.

When you two make love in any manner, you are involved with a spontaneity and discipline, again, that literally cannot be consciously ascertained. In Ruburt’s situation, such encounters are particularly of the highest import, for spontaneous motion is elicited. Impulses are aroused. The nervous system is regenerated. Nerve impulses quicken, as does circulation. More than this, the body automatically, spontaneously responds to emotion, and yet in that spontaneous activity what inner discipline reigns.

Because of your age difference, Ruburt felt he had to catch up, and he became more conscious of clock time. I want those sessions read again that I gave about his attitudes toward “work.” They were designed specifically for him and his nature, for when he forgets about work, with its connotations for him, then he is at his most intuitively creative, and inspiration springs naturally and quickly at his beckoning.

(Our exploration of “flamboyance” came about through Seth’s use of “extravagant” in this session, as I scanned the original notes this morning while coming up with some new questions. I guess the realization that the basic mistrust of one’s own nature could have such dire results was what triggered our conscious realization that we could do something about the whole business of symptoms, etc. Jane began to show results as we discussed the subject; after lunch, she was so loose, including her knees, that she wondered whether she could get to the john—which she did, by the way. But she reported “new things” releasing in her head area, and the back of the neck, that had been “tight as a fist.” Very encouraging, and we plan to continue working with these thoughts.

(I also stressed that our changing attitudes would be sure to change our attitudes toward others—that instead of trying to act “normally” toward strangers when they came here, especially when they were unannounced, we should simply be ourselves, secure in the abilities of our own natures; if any of these actions could be taken as “flamboyant” in a negative way, then so be it. That would be their hassle, not ours, I added. Our goal now is to simply speak our minds, if in a nice way, usually, to others, and let the chips fall where they may. I added that it would be ironic and hilarious indeed that if this new behavior brought to us everything we’d always wanted for our life’s work.