“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

None of Ruburt’s characteristics are “negative,” bad, or dangerous. All of them, recognized as a part of his nature, would basically work together in the most auspicious, satisfying, and fulfilling of fashions. When he fears his own nature, however, then the qualities are not put together as smoothly, so that one can appear contradictory to the other. Thusly, Ruburt felt that there were contradictions between spontaneity and discipline, the intuitions and the intellect. Therefore he tried to be either spontaneous or disciplined, or intellectual or intuitive, but with the implied supposition that these were somehow opposing conditions, or opposing elements of behavior.

John Wayne represented old lines of conventionalized beliefs about the male. Wayne represented feelings about the male that you received in your background from your father, and through boyhood movies, in which the male could afford affectionate behavior or conversation—only with his horse (with amusement). In other words, the uncommunicative male, who was afraid of open sentiment. The dream was in response to our last session, in part, and of your own musings as a result. You saw yourself as separate from Wayne, and able to manipulate much more quickly. And your feelings in the dream toward him were your feelings toward those old beliefs.

(After lunch we discussed her own notes on the morning’s work, and stressed that she should use the word “flamboyant” as part of her own true nature, attaching only positive meanings to it, being proud of it, realizing that it gave expression to her abilities in a way that few could match. This of course meant, as we said, that she needn’t go about any longer pretending to be like the normal housewife next door, or whatever inanity—since nothing could be further from the truth: She is not like the normal housewife next door, should not want to be, should not be in alarm at their criticism, and should thank God for whatever abilities she has of her own that do inevitably make her different, superior, talented, etc., with something unique to offer the world—an opportunity few possess, and that should be used with the greatest joy and abandon. After all, I said, people come to her for help, she doesn’t go to them. To stand in fear of the criticism or scorn of others is now, we see, the worst possible behavior. This must be eliminated, and we intend to work unceasingly at the task until its accomplished. I see no reasons to prevent our succeeding.

(I also stressed that our changing attitudes would be sure to change our attitudes toward others—that instead of trying to act “normally” toward strangers when they came here, especially when they were unannounced, we should simply be ourselves, secure in the abilities of our own natures; if any of these actions could be taken as “flamboyant” in a negative way, then so be it. That would be their hassle, not ours, I added. Our goal now is to simply speak our minds, if in a nice way, usually, to others, and let the chips fall where they may. I added that it would be ironic and hilarious indeed that if this new behavior brought to us everything we’d always wanted for our life’s work.