“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Before the session we talked about some questions we’d written down for the pendulum work tomorrow morning. They had to do with inspiration, Jane’s attitudes toward me as an authority figure, and so forth. This noon she’d made a very revealing remark, to the effect that her being out of condition was of service to me, also. I agreed, of course.

You both felt that the development of those abilities must be protected, lest the need for financial security lead you into full-time work on a long-term basis. You felt that you must to some extent allow your love for each other to nourish those abilities, and yet not jeopardize them lest it lead you into parenthood.

I am describing attitudes. Years ago, when it looked—generally speaking, now: I am simplifying—as if you might be swallowed by Artistic, you rebelled and became ill. You made certain readjustments, the sessions began, time went on. You were not selling paintings to any considerable degree. Ruburt knew he would not take a full-time job either. You may sometimes forget now how vehement your joint ideas were in those years, against the ordinary individual’s prospect of working eight hours a day, year after year, in the same place, doing the same thing. So Ruburt added the necessity of money to his creative goals, in a strong fashion.

(10:00.) This often stimulated him to new accomplishments. The addition, however, brought with it a new sense of responsibility—not just to make money, but as his writings continued he wanted his creative work to be “responsible” and he began to discover that others, so it seemed, were all too ready to latch upon what he almost considered magical inspirational productions, and to follow them with very literal minds. So then his creative endeavors not only had to bring in money, but they had to be good, moral, responsible, for they were becoming part of a body of work.

The creative abilities, of course, do not think of bodies-of-work. They create out of the joy and natural necessity to do so, and their productions also exist in a realm far too large to be so easily categorized.

The same sort of situation operates in millions of families, and the rewards that you gave each other for your creative endeavors were excellent, and worked beautifully. They still do. There is nothing wrong with the other attitudes. You did, however, both for years believe most firmly that your creative endeavors were dependent upon the need for protection from others, the world, from time, and even from any of your own characteristics that did not seem to fit into that overall pattern.

He felt he responded to people more emotionally, and so he took steps to see that artificial restraints were applied, so to speak, for those tendencies, he felt, could jeopardize not only his own work, but yours. And if that happened, he feared that you might retaliate, either by becoming ill, or by becoming eventually cool to him.