“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You simply decided to know what you were doing this time, and an over-conscientiousness on both of your parts led you to rein in your joint spontaneity.

Above all, neither of you wanted the condition to worsen. That is where you drew the line. No condition is stable, but ever-changing. The entire system of beliefs was based upon, again, fear of the spontaneous self on both of your parts—fear that it would lead you where you did not want to go, as if you and it were separate things, or as if its intents were by nature so divorced from your own that you must set up barriers against its expression except in certain acceptable areas.

(11:30.) Ruburt became the spontaneous one to both of you, therefore the one who must use controls. You became the disciplined one to both of you, which meant of course that you also impeded your spontaneity. The mind cannot be fully used when it is used at the body’s expense. You have gone along with Ruburt’s improvements. You are beginning to actively encourage it. Your suggestion to Ruburt involving touch is highly important, and represents growing understanding on your part.