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Now—good evening.

This time those followers are provided with information you did not have then, and they are taught to be true to themselves. They are told not to be cruel or fanatical, not to die for the sword, or by the sword. Yet they look to you. Ruburt became overly cautious, however, and your own attitudes helped. To some extent you felt, both of you, that a woman, gifted, needed greater protection. She was not as dependable, nor should she really show her face in public—so to some extent, now, the symptoms took the place of the veil.

You also questioned. You set up a system of balances so that you would think before using your power. This was overdone, however. On the other hand it was reassuring now because in that other life you were afraid of your own impetuosity, together, and had to know you could control it while using your abilities. You have each controlled it. There is no need then to further show yourselves that you can indeed be understanding and compassionate leaders. In that joint venture it made little difference which of you accepted the role that would in one way or another prevent the both of you from misusing power, for the one role would be passive while the other was active.

This time you have maintained your health equilibrium, and you have not become negative. Ruburt’s improvement has been steady, but guarded, as he watches for your attitude, and to make sure that it is indeed safe now.

To some extent, I do not want to overstate. You initiated the procedures years ago, and decided you would not be the one. Now Ruburt could have refused that role also. Nothing said that either of you had to accept it.

Ruburt’s condition has also served as a framework in which he is the opposite of the conquering hero. It is an attempt to play down his presence, to be the absent leader—and in this, again, you heartily concurred. You also played down your own leadership role, while of course maintaining it, and the two of you operate as a team now as you did then.

In any case, in the context of this discussion, had you not married Ruburt, you would have remained single, or possibly married to a woman who also would not want children. You were both used to the idea of attaining knowledge and influencing minds. In the Turkish life that meant following Allah and the dictates of holy battle. Now you know that no wars are holy, only regrettable.

(11:38.) Give us a moment.... The eyes and sinus will clear up as you understand what I am saying. The sinuses were not as noticeable before, for the backlog of congestion had caused crystallizations that lodged in tissues. These now become soft and drain away.

(11:47 PM. Jane’s voice was now quite hoarse.)