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In your joint creativity, you sustained each other’s faith through the years. You gave your desire freedom, and you believed in it. That belief dissolved impediments that lay in your way—even some you did not recognize—attitudes, for example, that you had but did not see were detrimental. You were not driven by fear, but desire, not by doubts but by hope and faith. You did not project failure into the future, but success. Overall, these last few weeks you have done well. Ruburt has noted sometimes a worry and lack of faith, and so have you. But those times are now becoming—becoming the exception rather than the rule, and before them the opposite applied.

It is Ruburt of course whose moods are more noticeable, but he still should feel free to discuss his fears with you when he is in a poor mood. For even if you are not filled with faith at such times, you can usually recognize that his fears are exaggerated rather than realistic, even in those terms.

Give us a moment.... If his knees could see, they would also be disoriented. (A great line.) The fear of the situation does not help, of course, for any such tension holds back the relaxing process—and the eyes are relaxing, and the neck and tendons, for example, letting go. Often at times when his vision is disorienting, that activity however also results in the better focus in reading that is coming about. Usually it is changes in focus that are involved. He will be reading fairly well, then perhaps look up at the television set, following motion of the screen, and then it will take time again—a few moments, perhaps before he reads well again. Or he will be reading well and look up, eyes roaming about the room, and then become disoriented visually.

You have both been afraid that Ruburt would not return to normal flexibility, to have faith in that situation, for fear your hopes would be aroused then dashed. You did not free that desire. You gave it no expression. You did talk of improvements, but you saw them going toward no completed direction. Again, because your fears did not allow you to express or release that desire.