“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Several times during the last week I’d mentioned to Jane that we should get more information from Seth on her eyes—insisting upon more specific reasons why they were so protuberant. Most of the time we felt that her eyes were healing themselves, since often now she would be able to see with great clarity at various distances even better than with her glasses. Tonight I found out that Jane too had been dunning Seth—but mentally—about more on her eyes. Now she became rather upset as we both voiced our opinions just before the session, and this probably contributed to the later start of the session. But I still thought it very strange for the eyes to cause problems if the body was in the process of healing itself, as Seth has so often said recently is the case. Why should another part suffer? I was ready to admit that the body could repair itself in ways that might be mysterious to us, but at the same time I certainly wanted additional reassurances from Seth that we were doing the right thing in going along with his information. I also realized that Jane’s quite unique set of symptoms might lead to effects as they released that we’d certainly be unprepared for.

(Last Thursday afternoon as I lay down for my customary nap before supper, I had an experience that was new for me: I’ve been meaning to write it up, so this place will serve as a record. As Jane and I have decided to do lately, I began giving myself suggestions about increased sales of her books. I was very comfortably ensconced on our couch. As I gave the suggestions I abruptly realized that they seemed to be penetrating—what?—some sort of barrier or limit that I’d usually assumed marked the limits of ordinary conscious awareness. Rooms ordinarily alien or unknown to me seemed to open up, although in a very concentrated focus, as say from the beam of a flashlight. But I knew that the suggestions had penetrated as never before, and I thought they had reached their goal in Framework 2 in a way that I could be aware of. The sensation was brief but unmistakable, and very enjoyable. It happened again a few moments later. Then I fell asleep.

Until the very recent past, his body in a way was overdisciplined, so that it maintained a fairly stable but rigid framework. Certain postures were allowed, certain motions, and not others, as if Ruburt operated his body as though it were a puppet, keeping it in certain ritualized motions by holding the strings too tightly.

Each muscle, ligament, and joint was to some extent affected, drawn too tightly. The head could move, and the neck, in certain positions. The eyes looked forward, moving with the head’s motion. The eyes did not roll easily, but since no attempt was made to roll them, the restriction was not noticed, except when Ruburt tried to roll his eyes when they were closed, for an exercise once or twice.

The eyes were not held rigid. They moved sideways, but in very limited fashions. The rigidity was largely set up in the head and neck regions—arms and shoulders, thus necessitating the bending of the knees and so forth.

Improvements could occur, and did, but at one time or another the portions of the body had to begin to break away from the overall blocked picture. Spontaneity had to be allowed if any normality of motion was to occur. You did not want a body in the same position, simply moving faster, for example. Therefore in the late months the various ligaments and muscles, and tendons began to loosen.

In other ways he did not use his eyes to follow sideward motions, and often tensed the entire head area when he executed any movement he felt was difficult. As the knee and neck areas began—as they are—spontaneous motions, unused activities of the eyes also began to show. They have not been synchronized. Part of this is because all the small ligaments in both the head and knee areas are released, or are being released. They are constantly exercising themselves, but are not themselves working smoothly.

The varying pressure in the joints is also involved here, and all of these issues are connected with depth perception. The body of course knows your situations, and the demands put upon it. If Ruburt were a traffic cop, other methods would have been taken so that he would not get run down, for example. I understand your concern, and perhaps I should not comment, but if some of my suggestions had been followed, you would have had quicker results with the eyes. I know you both fairly well, however, so I usually give you a number of suggestions toward action, so that at least some of them (dryly) will be followed.

In your joint creativity, you sustained each other’s faith through the years. You gave your desire freedom, and you believed in it. That belief dissolved impediments that lay in your way—even some you did not recognize—attitudes, for example, that you had but did not see were detrimental. You were not driven by fear, but desire, not by doubts but by hope and faith. You did not project failure into the future, but success. Overall, these last few weeks you have done well. Ruburt has noted sometimes a worry and lack of faith, and so have you. But those times are now becoming—becoming the exception rather than the rule, and before them the opposite applied.

It is Ruburt of course whose moods are more noticeable, but he still should feel free to discuss his fears with you when he is in a poor mood. For even if you are not filled with faith at such times, you can usually recognize that his fears are exaggerated rather than realistic, even in those terms.

You are beginning to awaken your faith, but still afraid to believe. Ruburt has had some excellent moments of such faith, however, and those moments add up. It is highly important that you continue thinking creatively in terms of his condition, of not being afraid to believe that he can indeed walk normally.

On the other hand, improvements may be gradual, but steady. The whole point is to trust that they will come, in whatever fashion, but in a reasonable time, without making other qualifications.

(11:02. During break Jane said she knew that either she or Seth could tune into the situation at the Museum of Modern Art, but that she could “feel resistance” to the idea. Resume at 11:30.)

As a child, you are immersed in Framework 2. Along the way you are taught that it is unrealistic to have any kind of faith unless physical evidence is behind it, but then, of course, you are not working with faith at all.

You have both been afraid that Ruburt would not return to normal flexibility, to have faith in that situation, for fear your hopes would be aroused then dashed. You did not free that desire. You gave it no expression. You did talk of improvements, but you saw them going toward no completed direction. Again, because your fears did not allow you to express or release that desire.

The exercise I told Ruburt to do about dancing can also trigger responses on his part in ways now impossible to expect. All of the resources, the endless resources on Framework 2 are available to you, and you will use them in many areas, but you must trigger them through desire and intent, with the faith and belief that they are indeed available at your command, in the area in which you are interested.