“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I explained to her, as we waited for the session to begin, my dilemma about Note 6 for Appendix 22—my feeling of time wasted after I’d spent a couple of days writing it very carefully—only to have it fall apart at the last moment because I’d forgotten to deal with one crucial point. I found my evident lack of skill at planning quite depressing. See Volume 2 of “Unknown” Reality.

(Today Jane has had a steady barrage of bodily sensations of incipient release and change—her most active and encouraging one so far, since we began our program on April 3, 1978. Today was also one of her most uncomfortable, however, due to the muscular soreness involved as little-used muscles in her trunk began to act. At the same time, her knees are much looser. However, we’ve learned by now to have the confidence that by tomorrow, say, the soreness in her shoulders and arms will have lessened, and that another part of the body will begin loosening itself.

(I hadn’t had time to buy Jane’s birthday presents, although we both know what she wants—hot plate for the kitchen, and a summer bed spread. We’ve had a succession of visitors, all but one of them unannounced, and have lost work time as a result. Saturday, for example, I wasn’t able to get out of the house to go food shopping.)

The older man was the one you saw. The apples did provide the painting connection with the girl, and the dream was very simple—a distorted view into tomorrow’s mirror. I am more concerned that you each to some degree have inhibited your subjective freedoms, and not allowed yourselves the opportunity for an even richer diet of dreams and psychic experience. I hope this session would rectify the situation, and it should.

(Recently Jane was told that a complete set of class tapes, with transcripts was being offered by someone on the West Coast for around $255.00 for 55 of them—$5.00 or thereabouts a tape. During a call to Tam this morning, he advised Jane to “put a stop” to the affair before it went too far—to at least write the people involved a letter. Jane has asked Sheri Perl for the names and addresses to do this, and plans to write a letter. We think the quality of the tapes must be very poor. There’s also copyright infringement, since some of the class sessions have been published. Jane is against the whole thing on esthetic and invasion-of-privacy grounds, not monetary ones so much, and I guess my feelings about it all are too ambiguous. At the same time, it all sounds familiar, as if we heard about someone doing the same thing last year, say.