“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, to some extent, you and Ruburt felt enough the same way to make the analogy feasible, only Ruburt was the one who constructed the edifice that would protect his own abilities, first of all, and yours as well. Beliefs are the attendants—not strangers at all. With such an edifice, Ruburt can only use his abilities under certain conditions, and he imagines all kinds of impulses, situations, or whatever, that might steal them away, or steal away the time necessary to express them. Just like our millionaire, who everywhere imagines in the most innocent face the gluttonous look of the thief-to-be.

The millionaire checks all of the locks, perhaps, or has the bank president show him the latest security measures that are being taken—and to some degree, now, Ruburt, and you to a lesser degree, have checked Ruburt’s security system. Was it secure enough to keep you from accepting invitations, to allow you to avoid distractions, or emotional complications that might arise from any considerable contact with others in, say, “professional terms?” Ruburt built the edifice, but you looked on, for though you disliked the building blocks, say, the symptoms—you thought until very lately that it did serve its purpose very well.

You have both built an excellent edifice of a different kind, in Ruburt’s books and mine, and in the sessions themselves, an edifice most admirable, and one that is composed of a kind of material that on its own possesses, among other characteristics, automatic self-protective ones. Not trusting that, however, or understanding this, Ruburt constructed a security system of his own, and with the best of misguided intentions.

(10:18.) Now give us a moment.... As given in the last session, the cost of running the security system was finally becoming too great, and at different times strong efforts were made to dispense with it. The old beliefs were still there, however, and between the two of you, at the first hint of “danger” Ruburt hastily put the system back together again.

The dilemma between expression and protection is a paramount one in your world, and people handle it differently. Ruburt began to feel hopeless about his condition, more and more dissatisfied with it, yet no longer certain that he could dispense with it even if he made his mind up to do so. And you often felt the same way.

Your household situation was set up with Ruburt’s immobility, relatively speaking, largely uncontested. As it became harder for him to navigate, it became “easier” for him to stay at home. Now you are contesting the issue, and (in) doing so, some patterns should become apparent. It takes your time, and his now, to encourage his walking, and if this is in “working hours,” both of your old beliefs are directly challenged.

Some discomfort is involved, and that discomfort instantly brings up feelings about belief in the body. Ruburt’s faith in his body is growing, but each such situation, right now at least, can and should be a new learning process.

In that light, faith or hope seem tricksters. Ruburt in particular, and you also, must understand that he can indeed recover normally, that he can indeed walk normally again—and moreover that normal walking is the body’s natural tendency—his body’s as well as anyone else’s.

(10:35.) Give us a moment.... Your joint determination is very strong, and is working for you. Definitely encourage his walking as you have planned to together. The disorientation leading to lesser walking for a while was simply the body’s way of protecting itself during periods of initial imbalances. Enough of that is over, however, and Ruburt is determined enough, now, so that whatever you decide upon can be followed through, though the distances might vary. You will see an overall improvement, however.

The whole area of work, time, inspiration and protection should be explored, and kept in the open, and Ruburt should write some kind of statement that expresses his understanding of the matter thus far, and states his questions. Try to arrange it so that the walking periods still give each of you, say, a certain amount of time between for your creative pursuits. I will have more at our next session. The important thing to remember is that the edifice was created, and can be torn down. Again—Ruburt’s body can perform better. End of session, and a fond good evening.