“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Shortly before the session began, Jane made a remark about her hands feeling better after her nap. For whatever reason, this seemed to trigger an insight on my part. I found it quite difficult to describe to Jane, for I always felt unspoken, unverbalized connotations in the background that, I thought, represented new ideas for both of us. My words made the insight sound more prosaic than it really was, I’m afraid. I tried writing it down so that I could read it to Jane: “Why did the personality adopt a course of action—being out of condition, say—that eventually came to assume such proportions in life that the focus upon it equaled, or even surpassed, the hours spent in the creative actions of writing that the personality said it wanted to do each day above everything else?”

You have both built an excellent edifice of a different kind, in Ruburt’s books and mine, and in the sessions themselves, an edifice most admirable, and one that is composed of a kind of material that on its own possesses, among other characteristics, automatic self-protective ones. Not trusting that, however, or understanding this, Ruburt constructed a security system of his own, and with the best of misguided intentions.

Your household situation was set up with Ruburt’s immobility, relatively speaking, largely uncontested. As it became harder for him to navigate, it became “easier” for him to stay at home. Now you are contesting the issue, and (in) doing so, some patterns should become apparent. It takes your time, and his now, to encourage his walking, and if this is in “working hours,” both of your old beliefs are directly challenged.