“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(For the last several days Jane’s arms, shoulders, hands, rib cage, and related parts have bothered her tremendously—more so than ever. Presumably, muscles and ligaments are still stretching, but the process has been very painful for her, making many movements she used to enact very difficult. Her walking has been impaired also by the extreme sensitivity of her upper body. Her stress relieved itself to some degree today as the hours passed, although she was still quite uncomfortable, still unable to walk as much as she had been doing recently. I asked that Seth comment on all of these developments, and why they were so painful for Jane.

(Shortly before the session began, Jane made a remark about her hands feeling better after her nap. For whatever reason, this seemed to trigger an insight on my part. I found it quite difficult to describe to Jane, for I always felt unspoken, unverbalized connotations in the background that, I thought, represented new ideas for both of us. My words made the insight sound more prosaic than it really was, I’m afraid. I tried writing it down so that I could read it to Jane: “Why did the personality adopt a course of action—being out of condition, say—that eventually came to assume such proportions in life that the focus upon it equaled, or even surpassed, the hours spent in the creative actions of writing that the personality said it wanted to do each day above everything else?”

(The above isn’t an accurate definition of what the insight was about, and I do think it was a valid one; it may be as good as I could get it in discrete words, I told Jane after I’d read it to her. I was after an understanding on various levels of the fact that Jane had created something that certainly assumed equal billing with her other creative work—that the personality may have been quite aware that this would happen, and was willing in some sort of terms for the situation to exist for a number of years.

In some cases the individual’s money or jewels are not even available to them themselves, but hidden in the bank’s deep vaults, behind all kinds of barriers and hidden time locks that must be cared for by bank attendants. Such people do not want publicity, for someone might find their address and rob their valuables—those that remain at home.

The dilemma between expression and protection is a paramount one in your world, and people handle it differently. Ruburt began to feel hopeless about his condition, more and more dissatisfied with it, yet no longer certain that he could dispense with it even if he made his mind up to do so. And you often felt the same way.

Your household situation was set up with Ruburt’s immobility, relatively speaking, largely uncontested. As it became harder for him to navigate, it became “easier” for him to stay at home. Now you are contesting the issue, and (in) doing so, some patterns should become apparent. It takes your time, and his now, to encourage his walking, and if this is in “working hours,” both of your old beliefs are directly challenged.

His body’s improvement directly challenges those old beliefs, and brings them into the open. I do not want to overstate, but it is as if, for example, the upper portion of his body had been held in a vice. That vice is indeed breaking up. I have largely explained this before, but the position of the arms, trunk, neck, jaw, head, and ribs were all related. The arms were not just shortened, but only worked in certain restricted positions, where they were relatively reliable. All of that is changing, and must for the further release of the walking mechanisms.