“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(“I do feel a lot of material there, on all of this,” Jane said as we waited for the session to begin.)

First of all, what have you done recently that was of benefit in your situation? Which of your efforts paid off, so to speak? The things that paid off, the things that were indeed quite effective, were these: again, your chair suggestion —remind me to return to that, for I have not mentioned some other reasons why I would like it stressed—it being the chair; the table in the kitchen, with all of the implications of additional cooking and involvement; your remark (last week) that Ruburt’s face looked much better than it did in those old photographs; your bringing in the flowers; your lovemaking, which I will discuss; and Ruburt’s point-of-power exercises. The pendulum work was important because of the togetherness it entailed, the joint determination it symbolizes, and Ruburt’s decision to uncover any or all fears rather than hiding them.

They have to do with communication, and with your individual and joint ideas of how feelings are to be communicated, and above all about your beliefs as to which feelings are to be communicated.

First of all, again, the situation, the living situation you have chosen means that you both place a good many demands upon the other, that in a family situation, for example, might be dispersed. Each of you then must meet many needs of the other. You are to be mate, lover, friend, companion, working colleague, each to the other. You are with each other constantly. With that as background, what do you think about communication?

Suddenly, however, the wells of love within you opened, uncritically. He felt that, and was moved, as always. But for all your talk about “wanting to help him too,” you seldom take the initiative in that regard. This time you began to caress him. The response was immediate, spontaneous, and as complete as the moment and his physical condition allowed. Many people spend hours, now and then, caressing each other’s bodies, massaging each other, or simply relaxing in such a way, whether or not a sexual encounter occurs or is expected.

Now let us look at yesterday (Sunday) morning, and for background remember the bodybuilders, who purposefully shut out all annoying distractions. You began your day, first of all, by verbally expressing your dissatisfaction about the late delivery of the paper, by projecting into the future the late delivery of it for a year, and then by discussing critically and in disapproving tones the educational system, and so forth.

It is legitimate enough, but whatever other feelings you might have had of a more positive nature you did not express, and so your day began on that note. Other people would read the same paper, yet all of them reacted in their own ways. If peace of mind is a goal, if it is, the late delivery of the paper is ludicrous. It is not allowed to color your day in such a way. The bodybuilder would dismiss it without a thought.

After Saturday both of you became frightened again, and your joint beliefs and habits of pessimism to some extent at least meant that you began to doubt the gains that had been made. This morning’s pendulum session, while helpful, for the general reasons given earlier, was also however more of an exercise in what is wrong, again, and was not followed by any constructive suggestion at all.

Your encounter with Leonard (tonight) was beneficial, because it allowed for expressions of friendliness on all of your parts, and the suspension of disapproving attitudes.