“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now yesterday Ruburt told Frank that he would see him every other week, and he told a white lie to cover the real reason. Frank had brought him flowers. On the same day he called your friend Peg, already wondering if he might have hurt Peg’s feelings the week before. He invited Peg and Bill for the evening, but Peg had made other plans. Ruburt felt he must have hurt Peg’s feelings, and this made him also feel somewhat abandoned, fearing that the friendship might simply lapse.

The letter re-aroused several states of feeling: time taken for “Unknown” 2, for one thing, but also Ruburt was struck by the gullibility of the correspondents, who were saying in effect that they could not lead their lives properly unless Ruburt could deliver the material. The character of such nonsense reminded him of the worst elements of the psychic field.

When you and Ruburt begin such a program as the pendulum, for example, it is valuable because of your joint initiation of it, and it served several excellent purposes. The best was probably the opening of fluent communication between the two of you, and Ruburt’s understanding that you would go full steam ahead to help him recover—his understanding that you did indeed want him to recover. That was highly important.

(9:52.) Give us a moment.... a long one.... You said yourself I believe once that life contains elements of each other reincarnational existence, and that each day did also. The problems and attitudes that bother Ruburt also appear—one or another of them—in each day. The pendulum can best be used to deal with specific events, with specific attitudes. I want to suggest a different kind of program, that is, a version of what you have, and that will bring better results. I am aware of course of your conversation this morning, and I must state that it is difficult for me to try to explain what is so clear to me, and obviously unperceived by either of you a good deal of the time.

Ruburt usually has a variety of bodily sensations, often simultaneously: some pleasant and relaxing, while others may be unpleasant. Again, with the best of intentions, the focus of your pendulum sessions has not been of the best lately. And you yourselves felt swamped by so much material. I am aware that often neither of you thinks Ruburt is improving one whit—and of course that is part of the difficulty. It is not the other way around, however it appears to you. Ideally, Ruburt could completely recover with no discomfort. Practically, he is indeed experiencing more discomfort than he needs to.

Shortly after Ruburt began using the chair, for example, he decided that he would try to walk to the end of the living room. He had you put a pillow on a chair so he could rest there if he did not make it. He felt a sense of accomplishment, and some delight with himself when he walked to the end of the room and back without needing the chair. Spontaneously he began wanting to walk more, and again was quite pleased when he made the circle for the first time.

The next two days his hips were going through considerable changes and it hurt him, so he did not walk nearly as much, and you both became frightened—Ruburt more than you. Following this he instantly decided that he must walk considerably more—at least 3 or 4 times around the circle—and at the last count, once an hour whether or not he felt like it, and particularly when he did not feel like it.

Now walking is obviously good for him, and I have encouraged it. I realize now that I simply cannot expect either of you at this point to trust Ruburt’s body to know what it is doing. There are times, according to the changes occurring, when naturally it would not walk, say, for a good part of the day, and often left alone, it might suddenly want to exercise new positions. But you both become frightened, adding to the body’s stress further.

So for now I simply suggest that Ruburt walk gently three or four times a day to whatever degree seems natural at the time. Otherwise, my position is this —and here I repeat—because overall changes in position and balance are necessitated in order for normal walking to occur, one portion of the body at this point is not going to right itself so that, for example, Ruburt’s arms are suddenly straight while his knees are bent. All portions of the body are stretching. The arms are longer. The legs have straightened. The knees are looser. The neck areas are releasing—but at any given day or period, right now, one or several areas might well be stiff or uncomfortable.

Last week Ruburt’s legs again were more or less of equal length. The left leg has straightened further, so now the right side is newly stimulated to stretch some more. Ruburt feels that stretch. The sensation itself is a strange one—quite active rather than passive.

(10:25.) I cannot change my stand on that issue, regardless of your opinions of it, the two of you. Everything that I am saying tonight is an effort to minimize Ruburt’s discomfort, and to quicken the healing. I am going to suggest a program, and regardless of what you think of it, the two of you, I would like you to try it, and urge you to do so. I do not expect that you will approve of it entirely, but I can assure you that it will be beneficial if you try to place trust in what I am saying.

Do this together. The suggestions should be clear and to the point. Ruburt has two old lists of such suggestions that can be used as a model—and those lists worked well, incidentally, at the time.

Now: instead of dealing with large issues, Ruburt is to write at least a page about his feelings that day, with particular emphasis upon any issues that bother him at all. Over a period of several weeks, for example, he will have dealt with specific incidents and his reactions.

Ruburt’s writing down his feelings will assure that not only nothing goes underground, but will take care of current issues as they happen.

(10:40.) Give us a moment.... The physical reasons for Ruburt’s eye problems are as I gave them. Psychologically, they began when Ruburt became worried over two issues. He began to feel hopeless when he knew he needed more dental work, and became afraid he could not make it to the office. He looked too ungainly, he felt, besides, even if he could make it. He also began to worry about helping with “Unknown” at that time, and about Psyche.

Give us a moment.... Writing things down is excellent for Ruburt in particular, and so again on those days when no specifics events occur, to be included in his notes, then I want him to write down his feelings about 1: inspiration, 2: work, 3: “Unknown” Reality, 4: Psyche, 5: Emir.

It is most likely, however, that those subjects will come up, you see, in any case in his daily writing down of feelings. The writing down allows for the immediate release and expression of feeling that becomes impossible with so many pendulum questions. The pendulum can also be used quite effectively, for only a few moments, but habitually, before bed—the two of you together—with Ruburt suggesting that he will rest comfortably and awaken refreshed in the morning, that he will have a therapeutic sleep.

Give us a moment.... I am aware of the fact, of course, that you both want Ruburt to walk more and better—but you must also not judge his body’s walking by usual standards. Allow it a sense of accomplishment as it progresses. It does know when it is ready to try out new positions, when it needs rest—and while I see your concern, do allow it to express some variety there.

The program I have outlined should allow you to take more advantage of Framework 2, but you must both remind yourselves of the good intent of the body, and the power of your own intent. Do not anticipate impediments. I said this before, and you have never really followed through, but if Ruburt would note down whatever feelings of release he has, or whatever improvements he senses, and if you would both recognize those as accomplishments, they would greatly improve in number and quality. You believe that or you don’t, but the fact remains.

End of session. Now prepare questions if you want for our next session, but read this one over carefully, first. The only hint I can give you for your benefit is one, again, that I have given you often before: try to imagine Ruburt’s complete recovery as a creative endeavor—a creative venture, in which all kinds of inner events occur even before, and way before, the completed picture shows itself.

Again—Cézanne did not show in any way on the outside, yet the “work” was largely prepared before the first line was written. You trust the creative process in art. Only in dealing with Ruburt’s body do you both become so literal, so determined. It seems you cannot trust the creative abilities’ biological translations—but the body is certainly as creative as the mind, in those terms. Whenever the two of you manage to free your creative abilities, and set them to work on the physical situation, you do see some results.