“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now yesterday Ruburt told Frank that he would see him every other week, and he told a white lie to cover the real reason. Frank had brought him flowers. On the same day he called your friend Peg, already wondering if he might have hurt Peg’s feelings the week before. He invited Peg and Bill for the evening, but Peg had made other plans. Ruburt felt he must have hurt Peg’s feelings, and this made him also feel somewhat abandoned, fearing that the friendship might simply lapse.

Ruburt usually has a variety of bodily sensations, often simultaneously: some pleasant and relaxing, while others may be unpleasant. Again, with the best of intentions, the focus of your pendulum sessions has not been of the best lately. And you yourselves felt swamped by so much material. I am aware that often neither of you thinks Ruburt is improving one whit—and of course that is part of the difficulty. It is not the other way around, however it appears to you. Ideally, Ruburt could completely recover with no discomfort. Practically, he is indeed experiencing more discomfort than he needs to.

Shortly after Ruburt began using the chair, for example, he decided that he would try to walk to the end of the living room. He had you put a pillow on a chair so he could rest there if he did not make it. He felt a sense of accomplishment, and some delight with himself when he walked to the end of the room and back without needing the chair. Spontaneously he began wanting to walk more, and again was quite pleased when he made the circle for the first time.

The next two days his hips were going through considerable changes and it hurt him, so he did not walk nearly as much, and you both became frightened—Ruburt more than you. Following this he instantly decided that he must walk considerably more—at least 3 or 4 times around the circle—and at the last count, once an hour whether or not he felt like it, and particularly when he did not feel like it.

(10:40.) Give us a moment.... The physical reasons for Ruburt’s eye problems are as I gave them. Psychologically, they began when Ruburt became worried over two issues. He began to feel hopeless when he knew he needed more dental work, and became afraid he could not make it to the office. He looked too ungainly, he felt, besides, even if he could make it. He also began to worry about helping with “Unknown” at that time, and about Psyche.