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His early background was relatively different: an invalid mother, no father, on welfare, et cetera, so his environment alone to some extent placed him in a different light in the eyes of his contemporaries. Added to this, from the beginning he did indeed –relatively, now—stand out. His unusual vitality, abilities, and intelligence were apparent, but they were not conventional abilities. The ability alone did not win friends and influence people.

Ruburt’s intelligence was not one to follow blindly, and so his marks were not outstanding. Even in school, both religion and science teachers found him troublesome in that regard. Writing poetry is hardly extremist behavior. Neither did the circumstances surrounding his college dismissal come about as the result of any extremist behavior.

You are both apt to say that Ruburt goes to extremes, and several times I used the word myself, and Ruburt never forgot it—but I did not use it with the same implications that it carries for him. A sense of purpose steadily applied, the continuity of feeling and work, the steady application over a period of years, these are not the marks of an extremist.

When the psychic development began, Ruburt was triumphant, for his abilities were flowering, and intuitively he sensed that direction, but the part of him that also dealt with the world was somewhat appalled, for again, such behavior was not conventional, and it was not particularly “the way to make friends and influence people.”

He wrote poetry as a child because he is a poet. He never consciously asked himself why he did something for which there was so little practical reward in the childish world. As he grew older it did put him in the papers, as he won poetry awards, but it was not a thing that others understood.

Mixed into this were feelings about your age, and that you were spending too much time on the project. Instead, you discover the car does not crash—and not only that, but your father is much more vigorous at the end of the dream than he was in the beginning. You still had not quite recovered from your fear, however. Your father was used as the main character, of course, because he is referred to in your notes, because you planned photographs of him in the beginning, and because in the dream he represented the disapproving portions of your own personality.