“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now: the new policy of writing down Ruburt’s feelings is beginning to pay off, and is leading him to an understanding of the feelings, to a recognition of his impulses. And toward some understanding as to why some impulses have been largely buried in the past, and why others, while recognized, were denied a hearing.

The material on impulses was indeed from me this morning, and in a way that material, coming through as it did, was the result of Ruburt’s dawning understanding that his own abilities can indeed help him solve his difficulties when he allows it. The morning material is important, then, and should be appended to the session.

There is something I want to tell both of you, and I hope you can see what I am trying to say. Ruburt does not need to apologize to anyone for his less-than-perfect physical condition, nor feel that his physical lack of mobility—relatively speaking—casts aspersions on the sessions or on our work. Nor need he feel that in contrast to our material his physical performance is woefully inadequate. The wording of that last sentence is important, for obviously his condition is inadequate—but he owes no one an apology in that regard.

Original thinkers, creative innovators, often have their difficulties with their fellow men, even if their careers are backed up by academic credentials, organizations, or whatever. Again, Ruburt has none of those frameworks. He was also to some extent blighted by those same errors that our material is trying to correct, as each person is to some extent in your world.

(10:25.) Give us a moment.... Briefly: Ruburt has always felt the strength of his abilities, even before he recognized consciously the areas into which they would lead him. From many sources—literature, psychology, religion, biography, he felt that creative or artistic people, those highly gifted, were persecuted by others, hunted down, misunderstood, and poorly equipped to deal with the social world. On the other hand, he felt that they were beset by errant impulses, extravagant, destructive behavior, the taking of drugs, overindulgence in alcohol, or even by suicidal tendencies.

Be that as it may, Ruburt began to withdraw from the world, and in important ways denied himself the experience of dealing with others in those respects. He is gifted in dealing with people. He has the capabilities that allow him to hold his own very well, blocked only by fears and hesitations. He does have a very strong private nature, along with an ability to communicate to others—and as my material stated this morning, a greater understanding of his impulses would lead to a natural balance. He might not want to see anyone for months, in which case his impulses would be to refuse any interviews or whatever. Then the impulses might change overnight, leading to a more sociable time.

One important issue is to forget “the world,” and instead deal with specific instances. The world is made up of individuals. Ruburt’s position has been conciliatory, and encouraged protection above expression.

As long as you rely upon Ruburt’s physical condition to say “no” for you, then Ruburt is still using it to avoid facing such issues or making decisions in that regard.

(10:41.) Give us a moment.... The material I gave this morning is especially important, and should be studied. The medication (a stronger aspirin) is all right for Ruburt. He is using it as an aid. The soreness that he experiences at times is a physical result of mental ideas, generally, that it will hurt to face the world, for example, and this new knowledge of impulses, and of his feelings, should help there.

Give us a moment.... I have never wanted to dwell negatively on what might have happened in terms of probabilities, and have mentioned it very briefly only—but Ruburt’s psychic initiation, and your own, represented a breakthrough of the most important kind in this life, and automatically shunted aside, for good, many other serious difficulties that otherwise could have occurred.

They also of course must to some degree still bear traces of their society’s official errors. So do not have Ruburt knock himself too badly, and do not feel hangdog in your attitudes about his condition, when you think of it in relationship to our work. That change in attitude alone can be very beneficial.

Give us a moment.... Ruburt should not disapprove of himself because of his physical condition either. He can quite rightly disapprove of the condition, however. He should, again, perhaps with your help, now write a new list of his accomplishments, and also of his positive characteristics, so that he keeps self-approval in mind, and your compliments when he does look well are always helpful.