“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(After finishing the library material, Jane called The Village Voice on impulse, but ended up feeling she didn’t do well: She didn’t get to speak to Jim Poett, who was not there, or to his editor. She asked a friend of JP’s to have him send her tear sheets of his last two articles, which I thought an excellent idea. The friend, also a reporter, mentioned the Middle of Silence people to Jane, which she didn’t like, although she learned things. Jane also gave the reporter our phone number, which she regretted doing later. I said I thought it better that she did follow the impulse, though, since anything, any action, was probably better than sitting immobile.

Now: the new policy of writing down Ruburt’s feelings is beginning to pay off, and is leading him to an understanding of the feelings, to a recognition of his impulses. And toward some understanding as to why some impulses have been largely buried in the past, and why others, while recognized, were denied a hearing.

The material on impulses was indeed from me this morning, and in a way that material, coming through as it did, was the result of Ruburt’s dawning understanding that his own abilities can indeed help him solve his difficulties when he allows it. The morning material is important, then, and should be appended to the session.

(10:25.) Give us a moment.... Briefly: Ruburt has always felt the strength of his abilities, even before he recognized consciously the areas into which they would lead him. From many sources—literature, psychology, religion, biography, he felt that creative or artistic people, those highly gifted, were persecuted by others, hunted down, misunderstood, and poorly equipped to deal with the social world. On the other hand, he felt that they were beset by errant impulses, extravagant, destructive behavior, the taking of drugs, overindulgence in alcohol, or even by suicidal tendencies.

Be that as it may, Ruburt began to withdraw from the world, and in important ways denied himself the experience of dealing with others in those respects. He is gifted in dealing with people. He has the capabilities that allow him to hold his own very well, blocked only by fears and hesitations. He does have a very strong private nature, along with an ability to communicate to others—and as my material stated this morning, a greater understanding of his impulses would lead to a natural balance. He might not want to see anyone for months, in which case his impulses would be to refuse any interviews or whatever. Then the impulses might change overnight, leading to a more sociable time.