“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You both comment often about Ruburt’s literal mind, forgetting that it is most knowledgeable as far as symbolic content is concerned. His interpretation of your dreams should make that apparent. So he spoke of his new chair and the Wanda incident and the piece of jewelry (from Frank) in one breath. Quite acute.

Framework 2 was involved, and so was the chair and so was Frank’s return. In the back of your mind you questioned whether giving him a new, more comfortable chair to work in was or was not a smart thing to do: would it encourage him to retreat to his room and his writing, and simply serve to intensify old conditions? Frank, who was away, had returned, and would visit that day. Your fears, brought to the forefront by the Gallagher episode the week earlier, again surfaced with the event of the chair and Frank’s return. Would Ruburt then simply continue seeing Frank now, and the old, it seemed useless, rituals go on?

(We expected Frank to visit at noontime, as per his call the afternoon before. I quit painting at 11:30 and went to the bank in order to be back home by the time he called. However, Frank didn’t see us until about 4:15 PM.)

You were unsure of yourself, however. Your fear was definite, and your uncertainty was next. You were quite aware of the fact, unconsciously, that Wanda’s employer was in fact not going to work out. He deals with mechanics. He deals with them well. You also wanted Ruburt to be aware of your concern, hoping that the concern would serve to accelerate his own determination and ability, and to trigger his resources so that a medical visit would not indeed be necessary.

I have told you steadily that Ruburt has no disease. Diseases are simply groups of symptoms that you have categorized in certain orders to begin with. He approved of his mind. For many reasons given in earlier sessions, he related mentally. Nothing wrong in that. You both had exaggerated ideas, or distorted ones, about the nature of creativity, and about people who were creative, and you considered yourselves rightly as creative people.

Ruburt knew that spontaneity was the basis of his creativity, and of anyone else’s. To that extent you disapproved of it. You felt it could be easily overdone, as say Bill Macdonnel or Van Gogh. Ruburt feared that spontaneity had to be tempered, because spontaneity meant unbridled, rampant, uncontrolled impulse. That belief is a basic one in your society—your religions and your sciences. So in feeling it you were both after all quite conventional.

Panicky, Ruburt began in his later 30’s to check all impulses except those to work. Remember that then, back then, your circumstances were different. He found himself at that age not having as yet produced what he thought he should; because of other reasons given earlier he wanted that creativity to pay financially.

The effects added to the disapproval, for while one purpose was achieved, his stance and walking were affected. Lately he has realized that spontaneity cannot be treated in such a manner, and that he has given up too much. But your joint disapproval was still there. It makes you uncertain of your abilities, erodes your self-confidence, and prevents you from appreciating your accomplishments—for you feel you must in some way disapprove of them. It prevents you from seeing your individual selves as they are.

Ruburt rediscovered the rune book, hardly by accident. The ommm exercises, with his late understanding, relieved the body enough so that the excellent rune exercises began to work, on his mind as well as his body. He allowed his body, finally, to begin to demonstrate some action. This is because he suspended his self-disapproval for a while.