“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Yesterday, also, Jane received the chair I’d ordered as a Christmas present early in December. We also expected Frank Longwell to drop in at noon or thereabouts, since he’d returned from vacation in Santa Marta, Colombia, South America. I mention these things because they too play a part in yesterday’s events.)

You both comment often about Ruburt’s literal mind, forgetting that it is most knowledgeable as far as symbolic content is concerned. His interpretation of your dreams should make that apparent. So he spoke of his new chair and the Wanda incident and the piece of jewelry (from Frank) in one breath. Quite acute.

(We expected Frank to visit at noontime, as per his call the afternoon before. I quit painting at 11:30 and went to the bank in order to be back home by the time he called. However, Frank didn’t see us until about 4:15 PM.)

You were unsure of yourself, however. Your fear was definite, and your uncertainty was next. You were quite aware of the fact, unconsciously, that Wanda’s employer was in fact not going to work out. He deals with mechanics. He deals with them well. You also wanted Ruburt to be aware of your concern, hoping that the concern would serve to accelerate his own determination and ability, and to trigger his resources so that a medical visit would not indeed be necessary.

You pulled from Framework 2 exactly what you wanted. Wanda also wanted to repay your old kindness. Frank, who was expected at noon, did not come until later, because unconsciously he was also aware that something of that nature was occurring. He brought you gifts that were replicas of ancient power sources.

I have told you steadily that Ruburt has no disease. Diseases are simply groups of symptoms that you have categorized in certain orders to begin with. He approved of his mind. For many reasons given in earlier sessions, he related mentally. Nothing wrong in that. You both had exaggerated ideas, or distorted ones, about the nature of creativity, and about people who were creative, and you considered yourselves rightly as creative people.

Panicky, Ruburt began in his later 30’s to check all impulses except those to work. Remember that then, back then, your circumstances were different. He found himself at that age not having as yet produced what he thought he should; because of other reasons given earlier he wanted that creativity to pay financially.

When he began to achieve some success, so that tours were offered, for example, he checked himself further against such “temptations” and to some extent, in theory if not in practice, you heartily concurred. The habits were set up. They were reflected in the body’s motion, day by day, and by your joint patterns of thought and belief.

The effects added to the disapproval, for while one purpose was achieved, his stance and walking were affected. Lately he has realized that spontaneity cannot be treated in such a manner, and that he has given up too much. But your joint disapproval was still there. It makes you uncertain of your abilities, erodes your self-confidence, and prevents you from appreciating your accomplishments—for you feel you must in some way disapprove of them. It prevents you from seeing your individual selves as they are.

Ruburt rediscovered the rune book, hardly by accident. The ommm exercises, with his late understanding, relieved the body enough so that the excellent rune exercises began to work, on his mind as well as his body. He allowed his body, finally, to begin to demonstrate some action. This is because he suspended his self-disapproval for a while.