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(Jane and I have been very upset over the holidays about her eye condition, and my chest disturbances. Both have been very worrisome. I even talked about seeing a doctor on both counts. Our original understanding was that the eye condition would pass rather quickly once Jane began to loosen up—but now it appears to be another fixed state in the general scheme of our lives. We’ve had a number of discussions about the whole business, and what we can do about any of it. I’m afraid we felt little to cheer about. We planned for a session last night but it didn’t develop.

(I was also puzzled about our problems because, as I told Jane before the session, I couldn’t see where as individuals we were doing anything so terribly wrong. I added that I wasn’t trying to shift blame outside of ourselves—but still, why the extreme reactions we felt? I used the front page of the newspaper as an analogy, saying that it exhibited far worse behavior and beliefs than any we were responsible for, yet the news and world events seemed to be made by individuals who behaved much more badly than we did, and that further the people involved seemed not to suffer any consequences of note, beyond say losing a job or an election, etc. There was much more, which need not be repeated here. I concluded by saying that I did think we had plenty of insight into our own actions—far more than most people did —so why the extreme reactions?)

(10:28.) Give us a moment.... His feeling that his work pattern should be like yours makes him worry when he becomes very relaxed. The suggestions I gave you about suggestion fell short largely because at the same time you could not jointly find a position of calmness. It should be easy for you to see that when Ruburt was ready you were not, or vice versa.

Ruburt has not expressed those feelings of hope and faith when he has them, for fear they will lead nowhere, or mislead you. Your friend Bill Gallagher is highly sensitive about eyes because of his own condition. He picked up your joint fears like a sponge, and was highly frightened because of his own fear.

My last session was largely ignored by both of you, and yet in it there were important clues. Your own painting is growing despite your own ideas of what you think it should be. “Unknown” is a creative triumph despite your joint ideas of what that book should be.

He quite understands the overall creative triumph. It is only when he tries to become overly literal that he becomes overly concerned with time. He has also reacted to your own doubts and fears about the book, and has picked up often your own ambiguity in that regard. Had he really been so against the idea of the book being produced as it was, he would have said so indeed.