“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt believes he should be a TV personality, a healer, a writer, an excellent psychic versed in all of the most esoteric traditions, a magnetic personality. He believes he should be objectively intellectual, cool and calm, and spontaneous at the same time. He should be in glowing health—glowing—and shine amid the multitude. A rather impossible task, that would make any individual feel quite inferior by contrast.

Ruburt emulates your own work habits, and tries to regulate his creative life so that it bears a resemblance to yours. He tries to be disciplined, put in his time, temper his emotional nature, so neither of you approve of yourselves. “Unknown” simply became the platform. It shows the excellent ways in which your natures interact, and that is what the reader will perceive.

Ruburt’s creative work is highly spontaneous. It comes in bursts, in its own way outside of time. He is very impatient at the work involved in inserting it into time. The misunderstandings—and this has been covered—lead to overreactions on both of your parts, and lead both of you to misinterpret your contributions, because initially you do not approve of yourselves.

You have written the equivalent of your own book from a unique standpoint in “Unknown,” but neither of you have really been able to recognize that. Ruburt, being true to his spontaneity, would forget publishing details. It is his attempt to try and match your individual methods of thought that confuse him. He is producing his books and mine —a double kind of production that entails almost two publishing schedules.

When you do, however, you see results. You pick up each other’s negative moods, however, so you ride emotional storms. Ruburt does not feel he can properly see his way out. Your feelings of spontaneity and discipline go back and forth. Ruburt should stop telling himself that he does not want to see people. He may not want to have visitors at times. On other occasions he enjoys spontaneous encounters. The eye problem has to do, physically, with his present stance—the lack of balance between the two sides of his body, causing pressure on one side of the jaw, and the ear canal, which further aggravates the fullness in the sinus, hence affecting the eyes.

Beyond that, however, is the fact that you allow yourselves, and he allows himself, no rest. You know how often, Joseph, you think about Ruburt’s condition, and it is not yours. So you can imagine how he is reminded of it with each step.

He favors at this time one side, and all his weight and emphasis and direction bears him to the right. The left leg is longer so that the stress is presently applied to the right side. Both the angle of his head and jaw, and the position of his arms, are involved. But the neck, those ligaments and muscles, largely bear the strain so that pressure is put upon the jaw on the right side, and this to some extent impedes sinus drainage in that area.

(10:28.) Give us a moment.... His feeling that his work pattern should be like yours makes him worry when he becomes very relaxed. The suggestions I gave you about suggestion fell short largely because at the same time you could not jointly find a position of calmness. It should be easy for you to see that when Ruburt was ready you were not, or vice versa.

Ruburt has not expressed those feelings of hope and faith when he has them, for fear they will lead nowhere, or mislead you. Your friend Bill Gallagher is highly sensitive about eyes because of his own condition. He picked up your joint fears like a sponge, and was highly frightened because of his own fear.

All of Ruburt’s concerns about that book have to do with his impatience in time terms. That has to do with his misunderstanding for he has not seen, really, that he is producing work for two personalities that cannot be squeezed into conventional publishing rhythms.

He quite understands the overall creative triumph. It is only when he tries to become overly literal that he becomes overly concerned with time. He has also reacted to your own doubts and fears about the book, and has picked up often your own ambiguity in that regard. Had he really been so against the idea of the book being produced as it was, he would have said so indeed.