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(Jane and I have been very upset over the holidays about her eye condition, and my chest disturbances. Both have been very worrisome. I even talked about seeing a doctor on both counts. Our original understanding was that the eye condition would pass rather quickly once Jane began to loosen up—but now it appears to be another fixed state in the general scheme of our lives. We’ve had a number of discussions about the whole business, and what we can do about any of it. I’m afraid we felt little to cheer about. We planned for a session last night but it didn’t develop.

(We haven’t paid any attention to the last session, for December 26, 1977, yet it contains a line that I’ve thought of often since it came through: “Ruburt....constantly concentrates upon what is still wrong.” Actually, this is true of both of us. For tonight, then, I wanted a session with answers in it, so that we could try again in spite of past failures. I still felt we didn’t know the whole story about the eyes, as well as the other symptoms, and that Jane may have inhibited some material on those topics.

(I was also puzzled about our problems because, as I told Jane before the session, I couldn’t see where as individuals we were doing anything so terribly wrong. I added that I wasn’t trying to shift blame outside of ourselves—but still, why the extreme reactions we felt? I used the front page of the newspaper as an analogy, saying that it exhibited far worse behavior and beliefs than any we were responsible for, yet the news and world events seemed to be made by individuals who behaved much more badly than we did, and that further the people involved seemed not to suffer any consequences of note, beyond say losing a job or an election, etc. There was much more, which need not be repeated here. I concluded by saying that I did think we had plenty of insight into our own actions—far more than most people did —so why the extreme reactions?)

Because you have that knowledge, you do not realize the frustration felt by those whose words have little if any—overall, now—impact, practically speaking. Your mental and emotional horizons have broadened, so that you now take for granted a mental world that others do indeed, and properly, look upon with wonder.

His ommm exercises can serve a good purpose; they calm body and mind at once, that is at the same time, and they can serve you also. They allow a period of disengagement in which the benefits from Framework 2 have time to act. I have said before to apply your creative attitudes in this area—and when you have, again, you have seen results. You have not felt free to express your fears to each other, for fear one will upset the other, and so the fears simply grow and then explode.

(10:52 PM. At session’s end Jane felt close to being physically sick, as she does when the material strikes close to home.)