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(Jane and I have been very upset over the holidays about her eye condition, and my chest disturbances. Both have been very worrisome. I even talked about seeing a doctor on both counts. Our original understanding was that the eye condition would pass rather quickly once Jane began to loosen up—but now it appears to be another fixed state in the general scheme of our lives. We’ve had a number of discussions about the whole business, and what we can do about any of it. I’m afraid we felt little to cheer about. We planned for a session last night but it didn’t develop.

Beyond that, however, is the fact that you allow yourselves, and he allows himself, no rest. You know how often, Joseph, you think about Ruburt’s condition, and it is not yours. So you can imagine how he is reminded of it with each step.

Ruburt has not expressed those feelings of hope and faith when he has them, for fear they will lead nowhere, or mislead you. Your friend Bill Gallagher is highly sensitive about eyes because of his own condition. He picked up your joint fears like a sponge, and was highly frightened because of his own fear.

Your feelings of hopelessness must really be confronted when you feel them, otherwise they erode your position. You each have a tendency to over-idealize yourselves, and therefore to find yourselves wanting by contrast. The over-idealization is rigid. A true idealization involves loving thoughts of the development and fulfillment of your abilities to the best possible condition.