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Now: Ruburt’s irritability is partially physical of late. The body wants to move. Irritability is indeed in its way a sign of life and vitality. It is not passive, for example. Physically Ruburt is nervous. The nervous system is being activated. He wants to walk—and is being driven toward motion, even though his present capabilities as yet only allow him to go so far. The irritability then is a healthy, nervous reaction. The nerves are physically urging him on—hence of course the walking in the kitchen, the impatience in the chair, the odd nervous sensations in the legs and hips, and behind this, your decision again not to hide —not to be apologetic. His body is already less apologetic.

There are periods of rest necessary, so for a while Ruburt did not write down his feelings. He was tired of dealing with them. Now they are coming to the forefront again, and Ruburt is tying them into your early springtime pendulum sessions, so that some new benefits now can come from that old work.

Now in answer to your question about impressions.

(10:13.) Give us a moment.... This does involve you practically in periods of discontent, a discontent that is in its way a constant reminder that prevents you from being satisfied with lesser answers along the way. Ruburt is being led to discover that the answers to his intellectual questions about his abilities, my existence, life after death, the solution to his physical problems, can only be discovered through the appreciation and use of his intuitive and psychic abilities. He is now making that intellectual discovery.

The intellect then discovers that its own abilities were greatly limited before, because of the small scope within which its questions were asked. Ruburt is now coming to that kind of realization, and that kind of development—which is of course the only possible answer. Some intellects weary quicker than others, or quickly use up, say, a fairly limited scope, but Ruburt’s has been restless and stubborn.

I am not making judgments now, but showing reactions—so the two of you hid the sessions from the beginning, for example. You tried to fit the sessions into the scientific context, as you thought was right, with the testing and so forth. None of that spoke of any great emotional exhibitionism, yet both of you feared it. Ruburt has pared down his abilities (as I mentioned before the session). He has pared them down to those he could reasonably explain intellectually.

Sleeping five hours or so—for Ruburt, in any case—right now is good, because his body wants to move by then, and soreness and irritability begin toward morning as a rule for that reason and at this stage.

And now I bid you a fond good evening.