“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You judge the world harshly also. You do not thoroughly appreciate emotionally your part in the production of our material, or realize that its direction and so forth must be, and is, colored by your own unique characteristics as well as Ruburt’s—and that at certain levels, the Seth material, as it exists, is a product of your lives together. Not as easily understood a product, perhaps, as a series of excellent paintings, not as easily categorized—and yet you are helping to paint a giant-sized picture of the psyche as it translates inner reality into the living fabric of the world.

Perhaps that does not seem to be what you had in mind as an artist. Perhaps it does not seem to be what you intended. You could have done conventionally well, with portraits, and with other kinds of paintings, with your technical knowledge, but as you learned more you kept trying to put more into your paintings, ever demanding more of yourself and of the art, and forcing upon yourself a kind of growth and development that in a way became larger than the art itself—so that the art, you felt, could never be adequate as an expression of the inner realities of which you became more and more certain.