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This is the same person who on the other hand used to put up barriers of bookcases at one end of the living room to protect himself from any neighbors or miscellaneous callers; who objected when Mr. Gottlieb dared to cross into his private working area and glance at a paper. In the face of those fears, Ruburt did progress from someone who was afraid to read poetry to friends, to someone who ran an excellent class of nearly 50 people—all of the time denying that any fears existed. Not faced, the fears grew.

(Jane was getting that “slightly sicky feeling in my stomach” as we talked about fears. I got her a glass of milk. “I’ll do what I can about the session,” she said. She was yawning again and again. I reminded her of my two questions from Monday’s session, plus the one about my reaction to the mail today. Seth didn’t go into the first two, but the following material did have to do with reactions to those who wrote us. Resume at 10:27.)

Ruburt became frightened, for example, of out-of-body travel when he began to get it in his head that “all the nuts” were doing it too, and that out-of-body activity involved him in an inner public environment, in which he might meet “all those fools” who were then not bound by physical restraints. He did not fear death, for example, at the hands of others, then, but too close emotional contact. He felt people “could get at him” that way.

Your interests place you in a position in which you question the theories of your times, and the people who uphold those theories are not about to seek you out. You do not realize the exhilarating nature, again, of your own endeavors in comparison to those of, say, the majority.