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This is the same person who on the other hand used to put up barriers of bookcases at one end of the living room to protect himself from any neighbors or miscellaneous callers; who objected when Mr. Gottlieb dared to cross into his private working area and glance at a paper. In the face of those fears, Ruburt did progress from someone who was afraid to read poetry to friends, to someone who ran an excellent class of nearly 50 people—all of the time denying that any fears existed. Not faced, the fears grew.

Ruburt decided to brazen it through—to do his thing and be paid for it. At the same time Ruburt carried the fears mentioned. He hoped for the world’s approval, for he knew his work was good. On the other hand he carried the beliefs of this afternoon’s dream—that originality made a person instantly suspect, and that in the ordinary world, if you put yourself in the world’s eye its people would hunt you down. In opposition, he carried the belief that he should go on television, make tours, and so forth, and expose himself in direct opposition to those fears.

Because the fears were hidden, they could not be countered through, say, fresh experience that might show them to be at least exaggerated. They could not be reasoned with, and the unconscious was left holding the bag, so to speak.

The exaggerated fears carried threats not simply of scorn, but as you so clearly put it the other evening “Those people would burn us at the stake if they had the chance.” To save Ruburt from such possible assassination, the symptoms were not considered too strong a measure. But in the face of that kind of exaggerated threat they were considered very strict, but reasonable enough under the conditions. The subconscious was not too pleased with them.

(Jane was getting that “slightly sicky feeling in my stomach” as we talked about fears. I got her a glass of milk. “I’ll do what I can about the session,” she said. She was yawning again and again. I reminded her of my two questions from Monday’s session, plus the one about my reaction to the mail today. Seth didn’t go into the first two, but the following material did have to do with reactions to those who wrote us. Resume at 10:27.)

Ruburt became frightened, for example, of out-of-body travel when he began to get it in his head that “all the nuts” were doing it too, and that out-of-body activity involved him in an inner public environment, in which he might meet “all those fools” who were then not bound by physical restraints. He did not fear death, for example, at the hands of others, then, but too close emotional contact. He felt people “could get at him” that way.

In a strange fashion because of his fears, now—and these particular fears can be countered with communications with the unconscious, and with understanding—he was afraid simply that so many people knew of his existence. To some extent that would have been involved no matter what field of endeavor he chose, if he became well-known.

The Framework 2 material provided Ruburt momentarily with enough faith to show some physical improvement. Faith will indeed dissolve fears.

Give us a moment.... Fears turn into severe anxiety, however, formless, when they are not identified and understood. The Silent Gallery people epitomized Ruburt’s fears in a fashion, and though I have given material in several ways pertaining to the fears, Ruburt never consciously acknowledged them, but shoved them under. The subconscious should be reminded of the help that is available from the source self, for its fears began before it had that information, and the fears themselves caused blocks that prevented assimilation of the knowledge later.