“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You could have “amended your ways,” but you both insisted upon what you wanted, and persevered in your highly individualistic ways of looking at your world—and in pursuing questions and accomplishments that you knew from the beginning were not those of the official world.

You had a period of acceptance under your belt, in comics, that you left. Ruburt did not. (An important point to remember.) He was determined to go his own way. His being demanded expression through the use of its abilities, and despite his need to be accepted by others he began to exaggerate the threat of their disapproval into scorn. When he began to sell his work, he felt to some degree, now, dependent upon the acceptance of the others in the world—for if they did not accept him at all they would not buy his books. Your own feelings about the world did not help in that regard.

The two of you exaggerated your position. You saw yourselves in opposition to the world. Ruburt was afraid his need for the world’s acceptance might lead him out into it again, where he would necessarily meet scorn, for he thought in absolutes.

It is important that he used to promise himself that he would go on tours or television if he became well. This was actually a threat he held over his own head. You must both realize that he can indeed recover completely—and you must both want him to. Do not forget Framework 2. Ruburt need not go abroad in the world to promote our ideas, nor have I ever suggested it. The ideas are best promoted through these sessions, and books—and not by hasty encounters on television, where answers must be simplified and ideas diluted, but in the reasoned writings that build in their own way, tell Ruburt, resting upon the great framework of the intuitions’ knowledge. And remind him that spontaneity knows it own order.

This portion of the dream represents his realization that his eyes are clearing. The fears are being washed away. Before, he was afraid to go down into the fears, represented by the water. The fears dissolving, however, turn into cleansing agents. The part of the self responsible for the fears was the part that thought success a male prerogative, so that the woman had to exert extra discipline. That was also one of the reasons behind Ruburt’s fear of the world’s scorn.