“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(We’ve also talked over Seth’s answer in the last session about why the subconscious doesn’t back off when it’s obvious that it’s gone too far in a protective role, say. I said that I understood his answer to my question all right, but yet that I felt there were still things there to be discussed; that in individual cases, for instance, the subconscious could go too far when there was no need to, and that in such cases it seemed to ignore the wishes and desires of the conscious personality involved. I felt, then, that there should be a more intimate give-and-take between all portions of a personality. Since in numerous cases throughout the species’ history, I added, this hadn’t happened, I thought there could be important insights there that we might learn from Seth. But primarily, my original question had to do with Jane’s own case, and at this time that was the one we were still interested in gaining insight into.)

Now: you are working very well together, and your suggestion about the use of the chair (to get around the house) was the result of Framework 2 creativity. It took Ruburt a day or so to accept it. He was afraid of wheelchair connotations, but he triumphed over that negative idea. Your suggestion was important for several reasons. It was practical, and could be done at once. Its most important benefit, however, was that it freed Ruburt from mentally seeing himself in only one corner of one room, and immediately aroused his normal leanings toward love of whatever home you share.

(10:05.) Give us a moment.... You cannot say that any of Ruburt’s attitudes were “wrong,” nor can you say in larger terms that his method was “wrong.” You cannot say, and should not, place moral connotations in such situations. Each personality is different, and affects the body in a different way. You think of health as physical only. If you think in terms of an unhealthy relationship, for example, then you may at least begin to glimpse the ways in which individuals will seek prerogatives, so each case must be seen separately.

Rest your fingers.... Ruburt’s particular case is rather clear and exaggerated in that respect. It is not murky at all. I have given this material in the past. He thought of his father—he thought of his father—as spontaneous, free, and undisciplined, as somewhat stupid and somewhat dangerous. He thought of his mother as possessing a strong will. His mother was authoritative to a degree. His father was lax. He feared his mother far more, however, and he tried to temper his own behavior, to ally the intuitions and the intellect or will.

He wanted to use his intuitive abilities fully, but felt that great caution must be used. He thought mainly of the health of your relationship together, and the health of his work. He became divided, seeing these as opposing tendencies in his personality, rather than as complementary ones that quite naturally met in his personality, so one was set against the other. Much of this appears in your pendulum work of late, but you both then project those ideas upon the world, so that you think of your readers as overly credulous, or of critics who are overly critical. This leads of course to people who are for you, but dumb; or against you but intellectual.

If this were not so, the subconscious would not only see to it that the body was in ordinary good health under any conditions, but it would automatically refuse to allow any individual to put its health in jeopardy.

One flower may die before another. One may be blemished and the other not, but none are the less flowers for that. Ruburt was convinced he needed certain protections. His judgments, and yours to a lesser extent, can be regarded as the flower’s blemishes, though I am aware it is not easy for you to see this in that light.

One was at a time when Ruburt began Rich Bed and the first draft of Adventures. He was examining beliefs, expressing aggressions naturally, and freeing his spontaneity. This led to the birth of new creative material as well. His beliefs and hopes arose again later when I gave the sessions on spontaneity and work that I want him to reread. But those probabilities did not materialize.

Your other dream involves Miss Bowman’s desire for death—her knowledge that although her mother died at an old age she is young and active at another level of reality—and it was Miss Bowman’s image of her mother as a younger woman that you saw. Your parents were simply symbols to you. They were not active in the message. (Miss Bowman was my high school art teacher.)

One point: I wanted to stress that when muscles are reactivated, to Ruburt they “feel sore.” The muscles’ experience is quite different. They experience sensation to a heightened degree, where before their sense of life was not that active.

(11:32 PM. Seth’s last point above was well taken. It’s the next day as I type this session from my notes. At its beginning I wrote about the soreness Jane was experiencing throughout the left side of her body. Today, that soreness has let up, or nearly so. Instead, she’s aware of soreness in other parts of her body on the right side.