“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The session was not held last night because of Tam Mossman’s visit.... I told Jane before the session that all day I’d been thinking that there was still a cause or causes for the symptoms that we didn’t know, or hadn’t uncovered yet. Perhaps a relationship between the intent to publish the sessions, and the idea of exposure or threat for not “toeing the mark.” [Tam is Jane’s editor at Prentice-Hall.]

(I also asked Jane why she hadn’t done much about her eye condition since it began a year ago, other than an occasional pendulum question, or the sessions Seth had mentioned it in. A little later she said that she was “upset” by the question, that it threatened her. She added that it touched something within, leading to feelings of hopelessness—and that now she had to get out of them before she could have the session. I mentioned that the question had probably touched upon hidden defenses, fears that the “protection” furnished by the eye condition would be taken away, and she agreed.

Ruburt’s early environment was far from perfect. He chose it, because it did indeed provide a framework that would make questioning prominent. He began in his own way to form his own theory concerning the nature of God and reality at a young age. He expressed these theories and feelings through poetry, which was itself an unconventional activity.

The poetry provided a direct expression of his ideas, and a protective coating as well. He lived by those ideas, however. As stated, this brought conflict with the church—a painful-enough period for Ruburt, but he was sure in his convictions. At the same time, poetry was and is creative play, and it sprang from the depths of his being. You do not have to try and make poetry practical.

(10:15.) Of course the personal material did threaten him, with his beliefs, for how could the person responsible for such a weighty lifework have any weaknesses? Certainly the weaknesses said that the material was not true – because when he emphasizes work over creativity he becomes overly conscientious, overly concerned with responsibility, and puts himself in a situation where old fears are indeed triggered.

I want to comment on your pendulum sessions, however. First of all, the fact that you do them together is highly significant and beneficial, more significant than you realize. Ruburt’s experience with you in the bedroom was an excellent example of your enduring loving relationship, and represented your single and joint decisions to utilize your love and devotion to solve the difficulty.

It was important that Ruburt state his position, for example, by saying clearly that the symptoms threatened him, and that they threatened him more than any scorn, and important also that he state that the symptoms inhibited his writing. Once the pendulum shows you that the subconscious does understand, however, it is all right to check now and then,but those statements can act as negative suggestions otherwise. Each session should be thought of with its questions in consecutive terms, so that later questions follow the reasoning pattern already given.

(11:00 PM. I was pretty depressed by session’s end, since it seemed we had so far to go. The first question Seth referred to was the one about why the subconscious didn’t realize it was going to far, when it imposed or brought about symptoms, as in Jane’s case, that were proving to be too damaging to the body, compared to what they were supposed to protect the body against.