“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Each moment is then like a mosaic, only in your current life history you follow only one color or pattern, and ignore the others. As I have mentioned, you can indeed change the present to some extent by purposefully altering a memory event. At least twice a week, I would like Ruburt to alter the memory of that playground in Rochester, so that he successfully climbs down the jungle gym.

Using emotion from the present, let him now imagine the event only defiantly, saying to hell with the feelings he had at that time about the dumb psychologist. He gives his past self his current knowledge. The two selves momentarily become merged in a psychological synthesis, and the past self, no longer at that point momentarily immobilized by fear, instead follows through and performs adequately.

At times he is standing straighter. The arms are looser. The neck is gaining resiliency. Some of these motions are not synchronized yet, and yet the improvements I speak of have been obvious.

I told him (emphatically) that the hot towels on the knees would help his eyes considerably, and his head. I repeat the statement. The body is quickening. The eyes are acclimating themselves. The main tension points however involved the ligaments of the neck, affecting the eyes, and while those ligaments stayed more or less rigid, the eyes got used to doing their work in a restricted area. When he wanted to look up or down or around, he would move the entire head, neck, shoulder area, rather than, for example, rotating the eyes.

It is almost impossible to explain the intricate relationship between, say, the positions he adopts and their effects upon other portions of the body. The releases involved that you both noticed the other evening when he straightened up to some degree, are most complicated and significant.

His body has become more dependable walking, as he knows. The most important thing at this point is for him to keep in as good spirits as possible—not by being Pollyannaish, but by recognizing the reality of his improvements, and by not overstressing those areas in which improvements have not yet appeared. Distractions are good, but you must use them. Ruburt learned, last evening, to use them when you had company.

The body does not begin to show such improvement with the intent not to continue. All of my suggestions should be followed—those apply to Ruburt and you. When Ruburt feels good by his standards, that is, in a good mood, relatively at peace, and in some kind of bodily ease, taking his situation into consideration, he should note that. I will help keep him from concentrating on the times when he does not feel that good. He should make an effort to forget his condition as much as possible, and so should you. This does not mean that you are ignoring reality. You are instead trying an excellent method that will help you change it.

His body is becoming more responsive, and there is no reason why the improvements cannot smoothly accelerate. An attempt to creatively divert his thoughts will help, so he gives his body time to escape his notice.

Very briefly: (John) Fuller (see session 808 re John Fuller notes) is by turns overly credulous and overly critical. He uses the journalist framework to protect himself, and at the same time yearns to forsake it. For that reason he seldom finds a strong sense of stability within himself, for he is pulled from one direction to the other.

He is not a creative writer, but a work-a-day one, whose creativity then seeks release. Personally, he has restrained his, say, flights of fancy while seeking them out in others, where they are less threatening. As a journalist he can say “Yes, these things happen, but they did not happen to me,” and therefore gain what he thinks of as critical distance.

He can be, however, again, overly credulous as well, so that he is always between tensions. His wife is freer, and feels she can rely upon him to help her structure any psychic experiences of her own. She will have those for both of them.

(John Fuller is to visit us with his wife next Wednesday evening, to interview Jane for an article he is writing on survival. Bill Kautz is to visit us next Friday evening. The Harvard professor wants Jane to give a lecture, presumably for his class.