“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt does not like the physical results of his plan on the one hand. On the other hand it was part of his method, a way of intensifying focus, increasing perception in a small area while also insuring safety, so that inner excursions would be balanced by a constant worrisome body that would urge him to return.

Until today he did not realize that the intent of his will was purposefully directed to keep the body down. In larger terms, you cannot say that this was a good or a bad method. In your terms it seems like a poor one.

One of the beliefs then was a strong joint one that you had to protect your energy at all costs, and block out any worldly distractions. Ruburt with his practical mind interpreted this more literally than you, and physical restriction was a part of his natural early environment, as it was not in yours. You were half scandalized, yet half approving, for some time. In the physical area in the meantime, Ruburt lost the connection between will and body. This was a natural result of his method.

In that respect, and in that respect alone, he felt helpless. He wanted to feel helpless there, for the reasons given. He has since realized at various times that the method has outlived its purpose—but the resulting feeling of helplessness has impeded his progress. The will and its power must therefore be inserted in that area. He is amazingly resilient. The cold to some extent restored the gums, by activating defensive mechanisms in the mouth and head regions.

The methods Ruburt adopted in his 30’s became more frightening in your terms of time, in the 40’s, so he is looking for a way out. But he closed off his will from his body, so in that area he felt powerless.