“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The development of Ruburt’s abilities would, therefore, lead him away from comforting structures, while in the meantime he searched for others to sustain him. There is no reason for him to feel stupid or inferior because he chose a challenge for himself that few would take. He has put to the test much of what he has learned. The physical financial abundance, for example, automatically and easily was accepted despite beliefs in the past to the contrary—and even in spite of your own negative beliefs in that regard.

His own personality has indeed blossomed in all aspects, in terms of relating with others, and personal creativity. At the same time he did not realize how all-pervasive was the belief that the self could not be trusted. He saw it in others, and tried to combat it and help them. The belief prevented him from following through, so that the symptoms became a symbol, in a way, because he still did not trust himself sufficiently. They also became a symbol to others: “Look—I am not that sure.” He was quite correct in his written statement concerning the development of consciousness.

Now: distorted as it is, and it is distorted, the science of mind book, coming from outside of himself, in those terms, is valuable, for it reminded him of his own power. He was afraid that despite his efforts he could not get better. Now you also have shared that belief strongly enough in any case so that your joint beliefs merged. His symptoms represent for him the one point of vacuum, comparatively speaking, where the acceleration that has otherwise occurred has not as yet clearly penetrated; and jointly they represent the area in which your combined beliefs have not caught up to your knowledge.