“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He was bound and determined to explore the nature of reality. He wanted to protect himself against self-delusion, of going too fast too soon, until he had enough knowledge to know what he was doing. He trusted most of my material, but he could not entirely trust me because I was part of the trip.

The symptoms then have operated as controls, a framework in which spontaneity was allowed—but allowed only so far. The very fact that anyone looking at him sees he has not solved all problems is meant to portray exactly that message.

You believed in them so strongly that he felt he must himself exert those disciplinary tendencies that you earlier displayed for him. Indeed, as he became more aware of the little that is known, he wondered at his own daring. There was no one he could go to for instruction. I could have helped him further, but I was part of the picture.

When he saw that he could become a personality, and how willingly others would follow, he became aware of a new kind of responsibility. Your earlier experiments were private. No one was following in your footsteps. Give us a moment.... He also began to see two poles in society—one highly conventional, closed, in which he would appear as a charlatan; and another, yearning but gullible, willing to believe anything if only it offered hope, in which his activities would be misinterpreted, and to him, fraudulent.

There was a middle ground that he would have to make for himself. To do this he felt he needed to exert caution, to emphasize his own doubts in order to make a bridge to those intellectuals who doubted, and yet maintain some freedom and spontaneity in order to reach those at the other end.

(11:22.) He had little idea consciously of the strains involved. Unconsciously, and at certain levels of consciousness, he figured it was the best route, allowing him spontaneity plus control; in much of this you acquiesced for some time, having grown tired of playing the guardian to his spontaneity.

There are energy blockages then, and discrepancies with Ruburt’s literal yet symbolic mind. “My energy can flow freely in those directions of my intent.” That should be underlined. Earlier Ruburt was afraid to say “My energy can flow freely,” for fear that would mean he would also have children. In line with “my intent” that is important. The suggestion should be given three times a day, in a series of three.

There is nothing for him to fear. The impediment with reincarnation has nothing to do with his intuitive understanding of it, which was always reflected in his writing. It is instead a reaction against the ways in which reincarnation is interpreted by others with less wisdom and understanding.