“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In his own way Ruburt has used symptoms as what he considered a safe framework in which to explore those areas he wanted to explore. While he experienced you, as given much earlier in the sessions, as cautionary and repressive, then he did not need the symptoms. He trusted you to set safe bounds on his spontaneity. This, he felt, relieved him of that “responsibility.”

The symptoms then have operated as controls, a framework in which spontaneity was allowed—but allowed only so far. The very fact that anyone looking at him sees he has not solved all problems is meant to portray exactly that message.

There was a middle ground that he would have to make for himself. To do this he felt he needed to exert caution, to emphasize his own doubts in order to make a bridge to those intellectuals who doubted, and yet maintain some freedom and spontaneity in order to reach those at the other end.

(11:22.) He had little idea consciously of the strains involved. Unconsciously, and at certain levels of consciousness, he figured it was the best route, allowing him spontaneity plus control; in much of this you acquiesced for some time, having grown tired of playing the guardian to his spontaneity.

Give us a moment. He trusts me far more than he did. Me, as apart from the material. Tell him that I can be trusted to monitor any and all of his experiences of a psychic nature. Whenever a fear spontaneously comes into his mind about his work, he should voice it to you. There is more, but if you want to end the session go ahead, and I will continue at the end of our next one.

The symptoms are a result of blockage of energy. He feels that he is supposed to be an authority, telling people to go ahead, and so fear should be beneath him. They are beneath him, such fears, but unvoiced they become impediments. They are shadows given substance only because they are denied. His intellect and intuitions spontaneously operate together. He is spontaneously critical, but critically spontaneous.

The suggestion I gave is highly important, with the precise wording. He has been afraid to go ahead. He is not one to compromise, and compromise has caused the physical condition. There is no way out of it except for him to allow himself the freedom of his being. When he thinks he might try an out-of-body at a nap, have him tell you, and call him at a certain time. Assure him that you will not only approve his spontaneity in all areas, but also check his activities and monitor them. I will also. That is the end of the session for tonight.