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In his own way Ruburt has used symptoms as what he considered a safe framework in which to explore those areas he wanted to explore. While he experienced you, as given much earlier in the sessions, as cautionary and repressive, then he did not need the symptoms. He trusted you to set safe bounds on his spontaneity. This, he felt, relieved him of that “responsibility.”

Give us a moment.... He fears for the gullibility of people, and is rightly appalled at their superstitions, as indeed you are, Joseph. In his case, however, much of this had to do with quite normal reactions—not voiced or expressed. When in the beginning you were cautious, and worried about his overdoing it, or going into trance at the drop of a hat, he relied upon you in that way. When your enthusiasm grew, and your trust in his abilities, then he felt that to voice any fears at all in your eyes meant that he did not trust his abilities himself.

You believed in them so strongly that he felt he must himself exert those disciplinary tendencies that you earlier displayed for him. Indeed, as he became more aware of the little that is known, he wondered at his own daring. There was no one he could go to for instruction. I could have helped him further, but I was part of the picture.

There was a middle ground that he would have to make for himself. To do this he felt he needed to exert caution, to emphasize his own doubts in order to make a bridge to those intellectuals who doubted, and yet maintain some freedom and spontaneity in order to reach those at the other end.