“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He was bound and determined to explore the nature of reality. He wanted to protect himself against self-delusion, of going too fast too soon, until he had enough knowledge to know what he was doing. He trusted most of my material, but he could not entirely trust me because I was part of the trip.

The symptoms then have operated as controls, a framework in which spontaneity was allowed—but allowed only so far. The very fact that anyone looking at him sees he has not solved all problems is meant to portray exactly that message.

You believed in them so strongly that he felt he must himself exert those disciplinary tendencies that you earlier displayed for him. Indeed, as he became more aware of the little that is known, he wondered at his own daring. There was no one he could go to for instruction. I could have helped him further, but I was part of the picture.

When he saw that he could become a personality, and how willingly others would follow, he became aware of a new kind of responsibility. Your earlier experiments were private. No one was following in your footsteps. Give us a moment.... He also began to see two poles in society—one highly conventional, closed, in which he would appear as a charlatan; and another, yearning but gullible, willing to believe anything if only it offered hope, in which his activities would be misinterpreted, and to him, fraudulent.

You yourself were also not willing to face consciously certain possible consequences directly, for example—of television appearances; possibilities of fame, etc., and you were ambiguous in that regard. That ambiguity gave silent consent in many instances. The same applies to the telephone. It represents the world, outside influences. You do not want to be bothered. Neither does Ruburt. If you handle a call, he thinks you are doing him a favor. But in your contacts on the phone, as with your contacts with the world, that is considered Ruburt’s area, his thing.

Give us a moment. He trusts me far more than he did. Me, as apart from the material. Tell him that I can be trusted to monitor any and all of his experiences of a psychic nature. Whenever a fear spontaneously comes into his mind about his work, he should voice it to you. There is more, but if you want to end the session go ahead, and I will continue at the end of our next one.

The symptoms are a result of blockage of energy. He feels that he is supposed to be an authority, telling people to go ahead, and so fear should be beneath him. They are beneath him, such fears, but unvoiced they become impediments. They are shadows given substance only because they are denied. His intellect and intuitions spontaneously operate together. He is spontaneously critical, but critically spontaneous.

The suggestion I gave is highly important, with the precise wording. He has been afraid to go ahead. He is not one to compromise, and compromise has caused the physical condition. There is no way out of it except for him to allow himself the freedom of his being. When he thinks he might try an out-of-body at a nap, have him tell you, and call him at a certain time. Assure him that you will not only approve his spontaneity in all areas, but also check his activities and monitor them. I will also. That is the end of the session for tonight.