“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

His psychic experience has grown and expanded, yet all the while controls were used. The controls served many purposes. They kept him writing, cut out distractions while he was learning. They also kept him from what he considered spiritual betrayals: he would not be a television personality, using his great powers of persuasion, until he knew what he was persuading people to do. At the same time he would be cutting out “temptations” to fritter away time, or to become a Kathryn Kuhlman. In his terms he felt alone, in that he felt he was upsetting all known knowledge, and without training working in the unknown. Since I was a part of that unknown, he could only trust me so far.

You, while being of great help, could not subjectively follow him, or lead him into out-of-body activity, and so he felt he had only himself to rely upon. He would go ahead. Then write down his material, check it out cautiously.

He was not able to express these feelings to you, however. He felt you would not understand them, for you valued his abilities so much that it seemed, by contrast, that he should profess no fears. It is a fact that fears were hidden, that caused body beliefs to operate.

Give us time.... He is indeed going in relatively unexplored realms. This takes courage. He has been dealing in many levels at once. In one he had to “prove” his mental stability, to his way of thinking. Since he is spontaneous, to him that meant appearing instead always calm, reasonable. On an inner level it meant, however, progressing slowly—probing the abilities, learning his way, while having a constant touch with the body, unpleasant or not, that would keep him physically oriented.

The body beliefs then grew up to answer that need. Because the inner fears were not recognized, no efforts were made to face them, challenge them, or conquer them. The fears, denied then, prevented him from further developing abilities and strengths that would automatically conquer the fears, and perceiving experiences that would prove the fears groundless.