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[...] They kept him writing, cut out distractions while he was learning. They also kept him from what he considered spiritual betrayals: he would not be a television personality, using his great powers of persuasion, until he knew what he was persuading people to do. At the same time he would be cutting out “temptations” to fritter away time, or to become a Kathryn Kuhlman. In his terms he felt alone, in that he felt he was upsetting all known knowledge, and without training working in the unknown. Since I was a part of that unknown, he could only trust me so far.

The very fact that he realizes such fears and faces them is automatically releasing. He does trust me now. It is when he is on his own, so to speak, that he is worried. He does not have to be on his own, however. [...]

[...] The psychic abilities are a basic part of his personality—bound to show themselves, as he was determined to express and use them. He has a fine intelligence. [...] The superstitions, horrendous beliefs and so forth, came to him through letters, and through the reading he began after his initial experience. These convinced him that utmost caution must be used as he advanced.

[...] He is indeed going in relatively unexplored realms. [...] He has been dealing in many levels at once. In one he had to “prove” his mental stability, to his way of thinking. Since he is spontaneous, to him that meant appearing instead always calm, reasonable. [...]

He decided to let those abilities emerge, yet he was not as sure of them, and did not know how to handle their dimensions. He knew that the stability of his personality was highly important. [...]

You, while being of great help, could not subjectively follow him, or lead him into out-of-body activity, and so he felt he had only himself to rely upon. He would go ahead. [...]

He was not able to express these feelings to you, however. He felt you would not understand them, for you valued his abilities so much that it seemed, by contrast, that he should profess no fears. [...]

He wanted to keep both feet on the ground—not to fly away physically. Much of this has to do with the fact that he did not express his normal fears, but felt them beneath him, so that they built up. [...]

[...] Tell Ruburt he will not have to seek me out. I am available in his dream state if he realizes it.

[...] Ruburt was used to his writing abilities, and he was used to subordinating his psychic abilities where they could be safely enough handled through the guise of art.