“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

His psychic experience has grown and expanded, yet all the while controls were used. The controls served many purposes. They kept him writing, cut out distractions while he was learning. They also kept him from what he considered spiritual betrayals: he would not be a television personality, using his great powers of persuasion, until he knew what he was persuading people to do. At the same time he would be cutting out “temptations” to fritter away time, or to become a Kathryn Kuhlman. In his terms he felt alone, in that he felt he was upsetting all known knowledge, and without training working in the unknown. Since I was a part of that unknown, he could only trust me so far.

You, while being of great help, could not subjectively follow him, or lead him into out-of-body activity, and so he felt he had only himself to rely upon. He would go ahead. Then write down his material, check it out cautiously.

He wanted to keep both feet on the ground—not to fly away physically. Much of this has to do with the fact that he did not express his normal fears, but felt them beneath him, so that they built up. The body expresses them instead.

He was not able to express these feelings to you, however. He felt you would not understand them, for you valued his abilities so much that it seemed, by contrast, that he should profess no fears. It is a fact that fears were hidden, that caused body beliefs to operate.