“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Important Note: I’ve been following Seth’s instructions fairly well, not completely—and today got more good James on Faith: he mentions the extra-normal or super-normal power again. As I took my nap I asked for assistance from that source. My head and neck area have been “moving around” constantly inside themselves, as mentioned in yesterday’s notes. When I awakened, something had suddenly cleared connected with the entire right side of my head and neck, involving the right ear, eye, jaw also. There was and still is what I feel is.... normal mobility, in the areas affected. These areas whatever they are, go through the right side of the body, downward; so that behind my right knee, for example, there is a sense of that mobility or easiness; and particularly in the right toe, though the entire right foot shares. (The entire right side isn’t so affected though—just these particular.... muscles? that were originally relieved in the head.) In those areas though, the mobility feels normal—uh, if I remember correctly... movement of the right arm is also much freer.

Want to make a note also about feelings on awakening from nap—tho I don’t recall them too clearly. The idea was that my belief in an extraordinary or supernatural force, working through nature, sustained me as a child. When I saw through the conventions and dogmas of the church, I threw the whole idea overboard. In a way later, I “put my faith” in Rob as being older, wiser, and so forth, and idealized him. Then, discovering that he was, after all, fallible, I felt betrayed; and worse I felt for some periods that he rejected me. This was years ago. But I no longer felt as I did as a child, that the universe was well-intended or cared for me particularly; and looking about the world saw personal threats. I kept searching through my work...disliking organized religions with their distortions and suspecting the “supernatural” that went along with it. During this entire period, I developed a way of retreating from the world — habits of thought and action. People who profess belief in God often are so... mean-minded, fanatical... that I threw the belief out the window. All I can say is— what would they be like if they didn’t... “believe in God?” I considered prayer embarrassing, demeaning... I think Rob considers it embarrassing—but I don’t KNOW that he does.