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Thursday: 10:10 AM-12 —Good James.

(Feel easier AM. Definitely as if body is letting down— 1:50-3 Good! James

Worked well, James. 2 hours AM. MOSTLY THOUGH, THE ODDEST FEELINGS, as if my head in particular has been held in one position only though I know it hasn’t been THAT stiff; like an iron rod from my head downward so that I had to move in one fashion; all together; and my head inside... shudders, like a car trying to start; particularly something trying to drop or extend or lengthen in the right side of my neck between head and shoulders; and my sinus drain / with this, a willingness more to walk, difficult to describe; and I feel LIGHTER ON MY FEET; though I don’t weigh much when I walk I feel very heavy... and I’m doing this James thing about leaving melancholy’s castle; surely there’s a connection. I did realize yesterday that the body’s natural “God given”! defenses include agility, responsiveness, strength, dependability, good health—and instead I undermined those and set up artificial rigidities; did realize impossible as it sounds that Seth was right—constant anxiety and tenseness caused the whole thing; and DID resolve to let it all go.