“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I thought I had a few ideas to jot down, now I’ve nearly forgotten what they were. Something about my personal purposes—what I’m trying to do.... reconcile a seemingly impersonal cosmos with man’s intimate nature? Trying to find where man and cosmos merge? Trying to find man’s personal path as a species in the cosmos, rather than just as a species on the earth; this presupposes that I find my own personal path within that cosmos; and where I’ve been bold in certain respects—with Rob’s help it also seems to me that I’ve been supercautious; in perhaps too many instances. This MAY result in spurts of fairly great rhythm of such things. I’d say that I could use my abilities far more fully even in those areas already being explored—Seth, the library, Sumari, etc., even if I wanted to leave other areas alone (seances, etc.). A greater boldness might also be therapeutic—and I certainly know I can count on Rob. His suggestion I try to go into the library—(yesterday) probably was responsible for the Seth-in-library thing tonight. This was I think the first time I’ve seen Seth’s image that clearly; though once in a session I think I did.

I’m a great double-thinker; that is I vaguely recall some of Seth’s remarks in last night’s session about the heroic dimension and then I think: is this to be taken literally? Is it a view of reality from Seth’s part of the psyche? If so—that in itself is quite legitimate and important; yet I feel, felt, Seth’s personality in a way super-straddle my own as I know it; and that is what the heroic dimensions would do....

What might be best for me now is.... to finish my book, start up a definite dream schedule, that is, two or three scheduled long naps plus suggestions as I used to do for various kinds of out-of-bodies and dream states; a session a week as of now with the dream work perhaps making up for the second session we don’t have; and painting. Maybe just the permissiveness is a sign of loosening checks and balances that have had physical reflections—not just because of psychic work per se—but because I haven’t learned to trust the self I was working with....