“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Then today, Saturday, my pendulum told me that I felt guilty about using painting time when I should be working on Seth’s “Unknown” Reality, since the painting wasn’t bringing in money, etc. This was a subtle but important change in my knowledge—for I saw that I wasn’t so much concerned about the amount of work I had to do on the books, as that I felt guilty about doing other things. When I made this connection I knew I had learned something.

I said once that when an alcoholic tries to stop drinking there can be repercussions from beloved ones, who are conditioned to the old situation. To some extent at least that is happening with you. Ruburt’s symptoms, dismaying, nevertheless provided a certain kind of steady, reliable framework. That framework is breaking down. You are reacting to the change.

(12:15.) Give us a moment. It is significant, for example, that you stop your joint pendulum suggestions at such times, for it means you feel the need of a breathing spell, so to speak, to assimilate the changes of behavior. You are each rather surprised at the comparatively fast results.

This may sound silly intellectually. The reason the pendulum suggestions do work is that you are both jointly changing a status quo that you have jointly—though you may protest—previously accepted.

When that status quo shows signs of changing, you become disturbed. You stop the suggestions. In your society money is like a weapon that you need to protect yourself. You cannot equivocate (to me, forcefully). You must completely accept the fact that you do indeed dwell in a safe universe—one in which you are free to develop, say, your painting abilities to the fullest, without fearing that that development will dull the weapon that brings you money.