“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt’s methods of dealing with such a situation were highly apparent, in his physical symptoms. Yours were not as easy to perceive. They did not show. In an unsafe universe you run your personal life along certain lines. This applies generally more or less, and specifically to you also. In that context you do not trust good fortune—indeed, it seems practical not to trust it. You hide good fortune for fear it will be taken away. It does not seem to belong in an unsafe universe. You do not tell people that you are doing well—you tell them that you must work from morning to night; that you do not have enough time. You have to prove that you are as hassled as they are.

Listen to your own conversation. When your friend Leonard comes and speaks of taking time out, you say “I wish I could afford such luxury,” or some such. You think of yourself as virtuous. The idea of not having enough time becomes your badge of virtue, showing that you are hard-working and not “an indolent artist.”

You work at home. You are reacting, and have been, to some of your mother’s attitudes toward men who work at home, so you try to prove to yourself and others that this is really not only as difficult as outside work, but more so. If people might think you have little to do all day because they do not see you going to a job, then you can show that you have even less time to yourself than others.

(9:40.) You have built up the idea of free time being wrong, sinful, no matter what you tell yourself about wanting more of it. That is one thing. Deeper, however, is the fact that the belief in an unsafe universe sets up certain habits of resistance, and more practically, of self-protection. The resistance is protective. It shows itself in fears that seem perfectly realistic, and indeed highly practical—the feeling itself is not let go of easily, for you and others rely upon it. It is a state of alarm and readiness. You are so used to feeling unsafe that you consider alarm of one kind or another as a realistic approach to life.

Your ideas of time however are detrimental. They were formed in line with the old beliefs, and so of course that seemed utterly appropriate. In some important areas, however, your own beliefs have changed lately.

John can be assured of their worth, then, and so can Prentice and so can you. At the same time the so-called conflict is also a result of your new beliefs—but taking the form of events that seemingly make sense to all of you.

Ruburt sees, and so do you, that other publishers would be glad to take our work—and you no longer feel “trapped” by Prentice, and “Prentice’s incompetence” in certain areas. You never were. I do not mean you personally necessarily. But the climate is changed. It does become safer, and even you personally this time can see Prentice as a creative adjunct with which you can work.

Instead you immediately say something like “It would be great to work just so many hours a day and come home and be free.” Or you emphasize how busy you really are, and how little time you really have—so if it seems that you do not have enough time that is hardly surprising: you have given yourselves such suggestions for years.

You form your private and joint reality. Those beliefs of your own that went underground, so to speak, must be altered. I have mentioned the important ones this evening. Time works with you, not against you. Underline 4 times.

Your own will appear in a burst of greater creative freedom. You did not have symptoms in the past—and now they are minimal. Your belief in an unsafe universe however was reflected in a dampening of your creative abilities in contrast to what you can produce. As your beliefs change completely, as they are, you will then experience a far greater creative freedom and release from the tyranny of time that those beliefs brought about.

You can have more on my book whenever you want it. Because of your joint ideas of time, Ruburt sometimes considers it a threat to your future time. This attitude will vanish on both of your parts as you become more proficient with the ground rules of a safe universe.