“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Before the session Jane said she was getting stuff on John, Pat, etc., and I expressed interest in hearing it. But I also wanted some material on myself, since my “distress” of a couple of weeks ago had returned; symptoms in the stomach, back, etc.—various shooting pains.

Ruburt’s methods of dealing with such a situation were highly apparent, in his physical symptoms. Yours were not as easy to perceive. They did not show. In an unsafe universe you run your personal life along certain lines. This applies generally more or less, and specifically to you also. In that context you do not trust good fortune—indeed, it seems practical not to trust it. You hide good fortune for fear it will be taken away. It does not seem to belong in an unsafe universe. You do not tell people that you are doing well—you tell them that you must work from morning to night; that you do not have enough time. You have to prove that you are as hassled as they are.

(To me:) Your symptoms have been reassuring to the portion of you that habitually followed the old line of thinking. The reasoning falls thusly: “Everything is going well. The books are selling. Ruburt is definitely improving. With so much right, something must go wrong, or things would not go right,” meaning realistic. Beside this the dis-ease serves to protect you from the frightening “fear” that if everything goes well something must be wrong, because in an unsafe universe that is a belief. So you provide a “little” wrong to preserve the larger good.

There, you have made some good strides. Your good strides there, however, led to your momentary-enough concern with New York City’s economic fate. Your beliefs in the safe universe are spreading. That is why you used the symptoms “just in case.” In the unsafe universe, however, you—not you alone—believe that something good will be fought over. The books prove their merit in that reality, because they are fought over to whatever degree.

The symptoms are really minimal. To some extent however they represent the weight of your own beliefs that Ruburt added to his own symptoms. He refuses to bear that weight any longer. There is no doubt that he worries about them. Yet he is determined to be free. Your work with the pendulum, again, is important, for it assures him that you believe enough in a safe universe to encourage his freedom, and your own.

Your own will appear in a burst of greater creative freedom. You did not have symptoms in the past—and now they are minimal. Your belief in an unsafe universe however was reflected in a dampening of your creative abilities in contrast to what you can produce. As your beliefs change completely, as they are, you will then experience a far greater creative freedom and release from the tyranny of time that those beliefs brought about.